BECAUSE OF YOU

2008-10-22T19:19:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,
It just came to my mind that I need to write something on you so that you would not rot. In fact, I was just being lazy to log into Xanga so I came to you. I wanted to write nonsense on you, but forget it. I know you hate nonsense being write on you cause you would always give me problems lkike getting hang or making the whole computer crash if I typed nonsenical stuffs.

I don't like O levels. I don't like taking exams. I don't like maths. I don't like studying. I don't like arrogant and proud people. I don't like annoying people. I don't like guys who discriminate girls and saying them fat, ugly and unwanted. I don't like people who are unreasonable and denying all facts when they actually did them. I don't like people who are petty. I don't like idiots. I don't like morons. I don't like people saying others that they are an unwanted piece of crap in this world. I don't like people who are too confident of themselves. I don't like people who smoke. I don't like people who gamble. I don't like people who swear. I don't like people being sucha spendthrift. I don't like people who owe me money. I don't like people who rely/dependent on others. I don't like people who dislike fat, pimply, ugly people. I don't like people who do not get serious when they are supposed to get. I don't like people who act pity in front of others to gain sympathy. I don't like people who stabs others in the back when they aren't aware. I don't like guys who treats girls as a piece of tissue paper. I don't like guys dumping girls after making out with them. I don't like guys who go after girls for their money. I don't like girls going after guys for their money too. I don't like people who have both hands/legs and yet don't work, be a beggar and beg for money. I don't like actress/actor who can't act well. I don't like people who can't sing well and yet singing everyday. I don't like people who do not look into the mirror themselves and reflect upon themselves. I don't like people who show off their branded bags/stuffs to others. I don't like rich people who flaunt off their money/property. I don't like rich people who look down on poor/middle class people. I don't like people who think that money can solve everything in this world. I don't like people who flare their temper off to everybody. I don't like people who are lunatic. I don't like people who pick others weaknesses and laugh at them. I don't like people who judge a person by its cover. I don't like people who are over sensitive. I don't like people who are not sensitive.

I like people who are humble. I like people who are sensitive. I like people who are hardworking. I like guys who treat girls as a precious gem. I like guys who pays for his girlfriend when they are on a date. I like guys who are tall. I like people when they are in their best. I like people when they are good-looking. I like people who smells nice. I like people hugging me. I like people who can cook very well. I like people who loves me for who I am. I like people who would not mind one's appearance and befriend them. I like people who makes me laugh the whole day. I like people whom I am comfortable with. I like people who would not mind me because of my weaknesses. I like people who looks at my strengths at times instead of my weaknesses all the time. I like people who are clever. I like girls who have fantastic figure. I like girls who are tall. I like girls whose legs are like some model's legs. I like girls who have long silky hair. I like people who are innocent, cute and sweet. I like people who are caring. I like people who are generous. I like people who plays music. I like people who can speak and write very well. I like people who show their trueself to others. I like people who feel really comfortable with me around. I like people who have nice eyes. I like girls who have sharp nose and long eyelashes. I like people who do not scold others for nothing. I like career-woman. I like woman who gives off an elegant and charming look. I like guys who care. I like people who are not rude. I like people who have a good temper. I like people who know how to do the household chores. I like girls who know how to wear stilettos and run. I like guys to piggyback girls. I like guys who are muscular. I like guys who really understand girls. I like people who are understanding. I like people giving flowers. I like people who sings well. I like people who are an expert at something. I like people who can make really pleasant music. I like guys who can drive well. I like people who are not a playboy/flirt. I like people who know their strengths/weaknesses. I like people who are thrifty. I like people who are not materialistic. I like people who are down-to-earth. I like people who do not get fat after eating tons of food. I like people who know themselves inside out.

I think there's more to go.
I will continue next time.
Sorry for the grammar.
Bye.

2008-09-07T18:55:00.002+08:00

You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Put the following 5 animals in order of your preference:

Cow, horse, sheep, pig, tiger.

Mine= Horse, sheep, tiger, pig, cow

Describe each one of the following:

Dog, cat, rat, coffee, sea.

Mine= Dog is cute, cat have scary eyes, rat is dirty, coffee is refreshing and sea is calm.

Relate someone to the following colors:

Yellow, orange, red, white, green.

Mine= Yellow is Mom, Orange is Dad, Red is me, White is Evon, Green is Goh Jing.

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Cow; career. Horse; family. Sheep; love. Pig; money. Tiger; pride.

Mine=Family, love, pride, money, career

Dog; your personality. Cat; your partner's personality. Rat; your enemy's personality. Coffee; your interpretation of sex. Sea; your own life.

Yellow; someone you'll never forget. Orange; someone you'll consider your true friend. Red; someone that you really love. White; your twin soul. Green; someone that you will remember for the rest of your life.

(:
Bye.

WHAT ARE FRIENDS?!

2008-09-04T15:28:00.003+08:00

FRIENDS ARE PEOPLE WHO DON'T TRUST YOU AT ALL AND LISTEN TO SOME OUTSIDER'S WORDS.
TRUE FRIENDS ARE PEOPLE WHO DON'T BOTHER TO LISTEN TO YOUR EXPLAINATION AND BELIEVE SOME IDIOTS WORDS INSTEAD OF TRUSTING YOU.
Oh, that's true friends, what a wonderful definition uh.

Being friends for three years already, they should know what kind of friends they have uh.
Believing some other people words instead of trusting you, knowing that you would not do that.
Telling her/his good friends not to believe him/her and saying that you will know one day what kind of person she/he is.
And people get influenced damn easily and believing some real idiot's words.

But to somebody, I know you will be reading this, I won't believe other's words.
I know what kind of person you are, really.
I know you would not and did not. I guess those people are not worth being your friends and I pondered over what you said just now, I think it's better not to confront them cause you-know-why.

Seriously, I'm tired of of all this friendship stuffs.
Happening every single year, now it's not that time for all this stupid stuffs to happen okay.
It's the crucial period-the studying time.
Girls are very sensitive and being a girl, I can understand but I think some are too sensitive.
Come on please, do you really think you have too many weaknesses and bad characteristics that people love to gossip and talk behind your back?
Oh god, I don't think you have okay. If you have, we would tell you frankly not saying behind your back.
But if you really think that we are saying bad stuffs about you behind your back, then forget it.

I don't care if you all are reading this or whatever.
I am free to write whatever I want to write out here.
It's my blog and if you're gonna say: Oh, you're so bitchy/you this backstabber/you this hypocrite or whatever.
I tell you, say whatever you want cause I REALLY DON'T CARE WHAT YOU ALL THINK OF ME.
Maybe I don't treat you all as my friends anymore.
Maybe...

As long as I have somebody and somebody and some other very good friends beside me, I'm contended enough. (:
One need not to have too many best friends, one or two is enough already.
I go for quality not quantity.
So what if you have so many best friends around you? You have to consider all of their feelings and not letting anybody feeling left out which is very tedious.
I don't like tedious stuffs.

Am very tired of all this.
I hope this shall be the last entry I'm blogging about friends.
Toodles.

2008-09-02T23:24:00.002+08:00

Went out to Marina today with people.
I guess I'm going to gain weight again cause I've been eating too much although cannot be compared with THEM.
Felt inferior sitting around THEM.
Haha, only somebody and somebody knows.

Esplanade again but only for a short while this time round.
I want to go to the airport next time.
Not Esplanade anymore.
Somebody, see that?
(:

Been watching 'Fated to love you' these few days.
I know this show started showing in Taiwan 6 months back.
Quite long already but it's super super super nice.
Although I'm still watching Brown Sugar Chivalries every weekend.
Maybe after the exams then I'll watch Hot Shot.

I think Baron Chen and Ethan Ruan are super hawt guys.
Not only handsome but sizzling hawt!
Lol.

I think I need to mug soon again.
This whole week ain't for me to slack but to mug for upcoming papers.
No holiday assignments, no remedials which is super fantastic.

I love today and Bye. :D

2008-08-29T15:24:00.003+08:00

Prelims ended yesterday. (:
E-maths paper 2 was a horrendous one.
I'll be contended to get 20/100 already which I doubt I would even get.
Maybe a single digit?

Teachers' Day celebration today.
I was the one who suggested the whole class to wear red top and insisted on that colour even though somebody asked me to change to white since not everybody like red and not many have red tops.
I am selfish, I like red and expect you guys to like red too.
So whatever fault or you're not happy with me, then scold me and blame me.
I don't mind cause I know I was the one at fault.
But on the other hand, I think that red is a very unique and outstanding colour, I don't know why you guys don't like that colour and still say want to wear your own style?
Oh please, is wearing black your own style?
Are you still living in the 1960s where there's only black & white television?
I don't mind black though but don't you expect to wear black and white which is super common? Let's be unique and outstanding for a day.
AND WILL IT KILL YOU JUST TO WEAR A RED TOP TO SCHOOL?!

Forget it, it's over anyway.
Many didn't come to school, I think most of them didn't like the idea of wearing a red top/don't have one, so they rather not come to school.
Anyway, it ain't fun in school today.

I feel super useless out of a sudden.
I know many are against my idea but you don't have to give those fucking attitude right?!
I know I'm not part of the class committee(just an extra in people eyes), I don't have any say in all this, but just for once I suggested this idea and was a failure.
I can't even do something properly, suggesting this idea made alot of people unhappy.
I don't deny that I don't have any leadership skills. I think I sucked at doing all this stuffs.
No, not I think I sucked but I am, in fact.
Yeah, I know I'm useless, brainless, a super failure who can't do ANYTHING right at all, not even once.
I shall not going to be a kaypoh, not going to poke my nose into other businesses, not going to say anything anymore. I shall then keep all the comments to myself and shut my big fat mouth up so everybody will be pleased in future.

No, I'm not really pissed.
I'm not angry with the class.
I'm very alright. I'm very fine.
I am just very angry and disappointed with myself.

Bye.

2008-08-25T20:36:00.004+08:00

Friday's the Be Yourself Day.
Theme: Retro Hip-Hop.
I think it's so contradicting, since it's already Be Yourself Day, why do we need a theme for it?
Either have a theme but not called Be Yourself Day or Be Yourself Day where everybody can wear their home clothes to school.

Are polka dots considered retro?
I went and search for retro clothes and some of them are fabulous.

Like this

And this.

I prefer the first one but unfortunately, I don't own them.
Shall not talk about this first.

Prelims are here again. It's the O level prelims this time round.
Sigh. I think I screwed up my English Paper 1 and E-maths Paper 1 today.
I don't know if my format for the letter writing is correct.
Many wrote as report writing including me, but some others said it's formal letter writing.
I don't know which is the correct one.

As for E-maths, let's not talk about it.
You know whyyyyyyy.
Tomorrow's chinese and ain't prepared for it.
Of all times, my dictionary went bonkers nowwwww.
Rawr! So I had to bring the 'manual' one which is heavy and bulky. :(

When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.
Bye. (:

2008-08-21T18:59:00.003+08:00

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽
真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中
朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛还要走还有我

Please tell me the true definition of true friends.
Who are they? What they are? Purpose of having true friends?
I really don't get it. Ain't true friends are the one who will stick to you through thick and thin? Ain't true friends will share their secret with you and won't give you that bloody stupid face when they're pissed off?
Sometimes, I really wonder if there are any true friends in this complex society.

Especially girlfriends.
Girls are the most ridiculous creature on Earth, they have the most complex thinking which make you don't wish to understand them.
Being a girl, I don't even understand myself at times.
How can I go understand another girl?
I really HATE the feeling of losing friends especially close friends.
SEE CAREFULLY. The word is HATE, UTTERLY HATE.
Who likes it?

I don't know why our friendship became like this when we were once suchaaaaaa good friends in that clique which I love soooooo much.
I thought of the past, we used to go out together, play together, study together, share secrets with one another, tease each other, gossip about others...but now, we have totally become STRANGERS.
Why did it happen? I'm not sure of the process too.
We were once best of friends, but now... the awesome clique that I used to hang out with vanished into the thin air already?
Can everybody be back together and do like what we used to? Nah, I don't think so.

I don't wish to assume anybody that played a part in making our friendship turned sour.
But ain't there too much concidences already?
IF it's because of a guy that we turned from best of friends to strangers, this meant that YOU WERE NEVER ONCE OUR TRUE FRIEND NOR IN THE FUTURE.
It also meant that our friendship was very fragile.
We cannot withstand obstacles, we are not able to overcome them.
Maybe you'll have your reasons, we won't know and we wouldn't want to know.
Seriously, I don't know why you change so much.
Okay, maybe it's us who change but ahhh...forget it.
I don't wish to say much too.

I asked one friend(A) what are true friends, who are they.
This was his reply:
A: Well i think those who are honest with u and doesn`t betray u of coz and oso could laugh with u and accompany u no matter wadever comes.
Sucha typical yet meaningful answer.
But do this people exists?
I really don't think so...

I would like to say something that might hurt the friends around me.
I don't think that any of you are really my true friends that would not leave me, that would stay with me and go through all sorts of obstacles.
Eventually, we would leave each other.
Maybe that's my definition of true friends.

I know people do change and I realised alot of people changed throughout these 8 months.
For instance, Guy B. He was not that guy I knew anymore. He became arrogant, proud, turned into another person overnight. He was not that kind soul I used to know. I don't know where the past Guy B I used to know went. Maybe that guy I used to know was dead already? Maybe...

Another example is Guy C. From the start of the year, I realised he changed and changed and changed.
For the bad, for the worst and for the better now?
He did actually apologized for his mistake but I don't intend to be close friends with him anymore nor I think he would want to continue being my close friends uh.
Once bitten, twice shy.

Girls change the most...
I don't know why and I do not wish to know why.
Sometimes it better not to know things than to know.
Curiousity kills the cat.

Took height and weight yesterday.
I'm gained weight. I didn't grow taller. Shortie and fattie me.
Bye.

2008-08-18T19:38:00.003+08:00

Say Hello to Domokun.

My throat hasn't been obedient these few days. I wonder when will it be obedient...
It had been so itchy and I can't scratch my throat right? Well, that's obvious. -.-
So I cough cough cough to ease the itchiness which is so so so damn irritating to me and the environment I am in.
The sound of coughing disturbs the environment and the people around me.
Sigh, I'm really sorry if I ever irritated people who are doing their work and having to listening to the irritating cough.
I don't want also, but I've got no choice.
I'm super prone to coughhhh.
Cough cough cough...And I hate coughhhhh. :( :(

Let's not talk about the annoying coughing bug.
So let's talk about depressing yet quite satisfied results.
Took back a few papers today.
Well, I'm very very very disappointed with my history though.
I know I did not try my best in this paper and still able to pass is already considered super lucky. So I shan't complain anymore.
Then for English, we've got back Paper 2 and Speech writing.
I passed Paper 2 and Speech writing. That's N level standard so ....
But I'm aiming an A2 for English in the Os, so let's see this O level Prelims for English, how much can I get, but I know I wouldn't score well.

A-maths, I'm super super super happy, okay, shall not use the word happy, um... let's use satisfied with my results although there's still muchhhhhhhh room for improvement. (:
For the very first time, I passed a major exam in A-maths.
WOOHOO~! Not a C6, but a B4. :D :D :D :D
I know it ain't very good but from a U grade I jumped all the way to B4 alright.
Great improvement okayyyyy.
I passed my A-maths paper 2. That's really AMAZING!
I thought I would really fail terribly for that paper, but I passed.
Oh god, Thank you. :D
And I think I scored quite well for Paper 1. :D

Next up shall be Chemistry but uh, let's not talk about the Combined Sciences subjects cause I really sucked in them.
At least I did pass overall and I'm contended enough. (:

Oh yes, I'll be going to Taiwan end of this year from 8-15 December.
It's during Winter, but I doubt it'll be as cold as Beijing like last year.
Taiwan, Here I come~~~~. :D

And I'm addicted to many songs currently.
喜歡兩個人, I can't find this song in Imeem.
So if you want, PM me and I'll send you. (:

转机(There's two version, one in Mandrin, one in Cantonese)

情歌王by 古巨基.
I'm lazy to search for it, so just go search yourself.
I'm sure it'll be worth your time to search.

I need to wash the clothes now, bye. (:

2008-08-16T17:15:00.002+08:00

Absence diminishes mediocre passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and fans fires.
-Francois de La Rochefoucauld

Prelims for the past few days were like mad.
I know I will NOT score well for this time round.
It's so damn tough, and I finally know why they say that Prelims KILLS, yes, it does really Kills.
History was a goner since I don't really know what's the SBQ is and I have no confidence in the SEQ and finished the paper damn early.
Chemistry was super tough despite I studied, memorised, read through stuffs.
A-maths paper 2 was also a goner, finished the paper damn early for the first time for A-maths and still had time to daze.

This coming week, lessons shall resume and next week will be the start of the 'O' level Prelims.
Did E-maths just now and going to do them later again.
I need to do well for my O level E-maths this year.
I don't want to retake next year again. :(
I hope to do well in my Chinese also luhhh which is kinda impossible.

Maybe I should start doing my TYS already.
Bye.

True love is like ghosts, which everyone talks about and few have seen.
-Francois de La Rochefoucauld

2008-08-12T18:24:00.002+08:00

No, I shouldn't be here blogging.
I should be memorising my History for tomorrow's paper.
But can't blame me, my dearest brain is too lazy to absorb all those facts in.
I think my brain is in a sleeping mode.
Wake up brainnnnnnn! I need your help nowwwww.

(After a few minutes of memorising some facts about History)
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Okay, Brain's much awake nowww. :D
I totally have no confidence in my History this time round.
Sighh, but I will definetly try my best cause I've been recapping through the MYE notes I've made for Hitler.
Reading through Stalin too but not really sure. :(

Today's Physics and A-maths were a failure I guess?
Physics-I hope to pass but I know I'll fail cause I just scribbled rubbish onto most of the questions. HAHA.
A-maths-I really really really pray that I'll pass this paper 1 as I know how to do most of the questions and miraclely, I know how to do co-ordinate geometry for the very first time in exams. :D A whopping 9 marks, I aim to get around 5 and I'm glad enough. But there were still some questions that I don't really know.
For the very first time, I used up all the 4 pieces of paper.

Been coughing and throat's very itchyyyyyy. :(
I really hate the feeling of being sick although I can slim down. :/
Okay, I shall go take my dinner and continue memorising my stuffs.
Byeeee.

2008-08-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's Physics and A-maths paper 1.
I think I'll fail. :(
I didn't study much luhhh.
Just memorising those formulas, doing some questions.

Hadn't been fever for the whole day which I guess it's stable already.
But please, I pray that the tempt would not go up anymore.
And I need to study for Physics and A-maths already.
Blahhhh, I dislike these subjects.
:(

Oh, did I mention that my eyes were swollen last night?
I think it's because of the medicine that my eyes went swollen.
But I've eaten that medicine before, I wonder why did my eyes got swollen?
Hmmm... Maybe too heaty.

Okay, I guess I better go studyyyy.
GOOD LUCK to those having exams.
Bye.

2008-08-10T14:07:00.002+08:00

Was running a high fever yesterday. :(
Went to the doctor this morning and luckily, it ain't dengue fever but I'm still afraid.
Virus infection of the throat causes the damn fever. :(
I want to get well soon.
Tuesday my prelims and I've not studied much.

I have to study my Physics and A-maths later.
I'm very very worried/afraid that I'll fail those papers.
I still don't really get the hand of doing A-maths.
I've not memorised the formulas of A-maths stuffs.
Nor do I really know about the Physics formula.
Sighhhhh...

Results of prelims decide the fate of whether I'll be staying in this class, retaining and stuffs.
No, I don't want to retain for goodness sake, nor do I want to go over to the other class.
Of all times, why must I be sick nowwwwwww?

Happy Belated Birthday to Singapore.
Wasn't really watching the NDP since I've watched it.
Oh yes, watched Money Not Enough 2 during Friday.
Very funny, sad and touching. I cried two times.
:(

I guess I better get going to eat my medicine, watch my brown sugar chivalries?
WHAT?! I'm still watching shows at this crucial period.
NOOOOOOO, I need to do my work.
Bye.

2008-08-07T22:34:00.006+08:00

Farewell Party.

NDP Preview.

and many more which I'm lazy to upload.

Fireworks are gorgeous, ain't it?
I don't admit that my photography skills are superb but at least quite nicely taken uh.
I so want to go to next year NDP again for the fireworks. :D

Tomorrow's the National Day Celebration, no lessons. (:
I shall do my maths later/read up history.
No more time.
Next tuesday is A-maths and Physics Prelim already.

Okay, Bye and Nights Loveeeelies. (:

2008-08-03T22:34:00.002+08:00

Mom's back already. :D
She bought for me 2 dresses, 2 tops(which are to be worn together), 3 shorts, 5 accessories. :D
I'm so happppppy and they're so damn freaking cheap la.
One of the dress is in olive green which is so yucky but it's very femimine.
Somemore, I don't have those kind of dress.

I can sense that my wardrobe is bursting already but who cares?
Which girl would complain that they have too many clothes?
I doubt anybody would.

Went for the NDP Preview yesterday at Marina.
The fireworks were the best ever, super awesome and gorgeous.
So much better than the time when I was in Primary 5.
The performance were also much much better, improved alot.
Took lotsa photos but my phone's charging now so will post them up next time.

After that, we went down and took pictures with the performers.
Once in a lifetime hor, those performers were super high anyway. :D
Then, took pictures with those tanks and stuffs.
So cool la.

Attended the farewell party on Friday.
I enjoyed it cause there's delicious foooooooooood. :9
BBQ & Potluck. :D
Went home quite late and was afraid cause I shan't say why.
Most of them should know.

I want to sit the Singapore Flyer with my future boyfriend and must during previews of the NDP so that there would be fireworks in the background and then I would want him to kiss me til the fireworks end.
LOL, that would be so so so romantic and wishful thinking of mine.
HAHAHAHA.

The weather's damnnnnnnn hot nowadays.
I hate this kind of weather.
Me sweating profusely in class and cannot concentrate due to the stupid sorching sun.
Rawr, it's frustrating alright.

I shall end here then cause there's school tomorrow.
Nights.

2008-07-31T12:00:00.004+08:00

I am studying for my SS prelims tomorrow.
I don't know what will be out but I hope globalisation would NOT be out cause I don't intend to study.
Oh, see me blogging at this time cause there's no school today for our class cause it's the N level Chinese prelims, we ain't taking N level so we do not have to go.
I shall make full use of this day to study my SS. (:

Leadership is key-Chapter 2
NHS-Chapter 3
Conflicts-Chapter 4
Bonding Singapore-Chapter 5
Deterrence & Diplomacy-Chapter 6

I don't want to study 5 chapters.
Maybe the most I'll study just 3 chapters.
I have totally no confidence in my combined humanities anymore.
It's not that I don't want to score well but I have a feeling that I won't do well in tomorrow's paper.
I have a feeling that the SEQ will have super tough questions that I will just stare blankly at it. It either my brain or my hands won't move.
I'm afraid that it'll come out those topics that I don't study at all, for example, NHS and Bonding Singapore which I'm totally NOT going to touch it.
Hopefully, conflicts will come out pleaseeeeeeee.

Went to T3 few weeks ago.

I don't know how explain my feelings right now.
I feel so useless, so stupid, such an idiot.
Argh, no, I can't continue being so emotional, I ought to concentrate on my studies already.
I have to stop being so lazy, not doing any revision, not doing any work.
Prelims are here and in a blink of eye, O levels for 2 subjects.

I don't think I'll do well in E-maths this time round.
I've been either failing or just pass class tests which is considered quite easy/lower than O level standard.
I think I'll do badly in O levels, so no more playing for me.
Rushing out of time already. Time is precious right now so yeh, I should stop blogging already.
Bye.

2008-07-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's the prelims.
English will be the first paper.
I'm reading through model essays, blogs to give me ideas and to score in the content.
My content always sucks.

Read through a few blogs and found that life is so fragile.
So remember to treasure your loved ones and never take them for granted.
They may leave you anytime.
Sighhhhh... life's full of surprises.

Guys are always so blockhead at confessing their feelings, especially those without experience.
Haha, always giving flowers(like in drama serials), Dad said that it's so old-fashioned and so not practical.
The flowers will wither within a few days and the girls don't even know to keep or to throw them away. Haha.
Dad is totally not romantic at all.
LOL.

But being a girl, I like receiving flowers no matter if it's from whoever.
Valentines Day flower from friends are the best, I will always keep those flowers till they're really withered, tattered and torn.
:D

I think I better go read up on my model essays already.
Bye, and Good Luck for people who are having their exams now.
(:

2008-07-26T21:14:00.002+08:00

I have to do my homework after blogging this.
Prelims are coming up, no wait, it's this wednesday. Ohmy.
I needa buck up soon. I don't want to fail my prelims.
I want to go to seconday 5.

Still got piles of homework to finish especially maths.
I really sucked at maths.
Oh, I failed my differentiation test and I'm super angry with myself.
I could actually get quite a high marks because of stupid careless mistakes!
I know how to them... Argh! Forget it.
:(

On the other hand, I passed my E-maths test. Finally, I passed. :D
Super happy. (:
Okay, I better get going to do my work.
Bye.

2008-07-22T20:14:00.002+08:00

I don't even know how to do a single question on my differentiation homework.
:(.
I think I might fail today's test since the answers were wrong for the second question but I hope I can score for the first question.
And I think A-maths is really easier than E-maths.
I think I am catching up on A-maths already and that's good. (:

Prelims are next week and I don't know how I'll be able to fare with this kind of very lousy results.
Let's start a brief introduction on the weaknesses of each subject.

English-My grammar, vocabulary and the use of my language and words sucks core. I sucked at doing summary. I sucked at answering compre questions at times, I sucked in my compo because of its super lousy content. I can't write, speak or read well.
Sigh.

Maths-The lousiest subject of all. I've been failing/just pass class tests on maths revision and vectors. I don't know how to take my O's at the end of the year. SHE was saying that day that with this kind of results, can't even get a B, how to aim for A. Sigh again, but Hey, I didn't said I wanted to get an A/B right, did I? I just hope for a pass, but if I tried my best, I think I can still score better?
If I really did tried my best and still a C6 or whatever, I don't think I want to retake as it's wasting my parents hard-earned money. So forget it, I seriously hate maths.

A-maths-I think I am coping quite well with it although sometimes I still can't get some questions right, but at least there's improvement and that's quite good. There's still one more year for my a-maths Os, so I think I shall work very hard next year to score in my a-maths in Os.

Combined Humanities-I'm dropping alotttttttttt in this subject that used to be quite good in. The SBQ and SEQ are enemies of me now. Oh shit, there's SBQ(SS) test tomorrow. Wth?! Actually, once you mastered the skills and know memorise the stuffs for SEQ, should be alright and can score like what I did for MYE. I hope I can really do well in this prelims too as this was the subject that pulled me up alot.

Combined Sciences-I don't know what to say for this subject, No comments anyway. I've forgotten most of the facts and I think it's time that I do revision notes for Physics since I've done for Chemistry. I really want to score well in both since it ain't my worst subject or whatever.

Chinese-No comments.

F&N-My favourite subject and hopefully I can score well in the theory also. For next year coursework, I must not screw up any dishes or whatever anymore. I must score in the coursework and also theory. :D

That's about it?
I know I'm weak in all subjects, I don't think I've any strengths for anything including physical and inner beauty. Haha.

Frankly, I don't think I'm tall enough. I wish to be at least 1.7m and I'm like only 1.63-66m now which is like so far from my expectations.
And I wish to be slimmer with slimmer thighs and sexy curves which is like impossible la. -.-
Oh, I'm frigging heavy too. Too heavy and ashamed of my weight. :(
I gained alotttttttttttttttttttttttttttt of weight.
Not 1kg, not 2kg but a big _kg. :( :( :(
Guess I've been eating alotttttttt.
I must cut down on the amount of rice I eat everytime. :(

I shall end here then.
Bye.

2008-07-19T21:29:00.003+08:00

I don't think I like blogging anymore.
Just seemed too lazy to update the currently super dead blog with people trying to revive it, thanks uh btw. :)

I've not touched on my maths homework/revision at all when there's 3 consecutive tests next week.
I don't think I'll be able to score them if I continue being extremely lazy.
Prelims are coming in less than 2 weeks time.
I don't know how I can score well in Prelims which determine whether I can stay in this class next year or drop over.
Sigh. Changing of classmates again next year.
Hah, more troubles, problems and a noiser study environment next year.

Again, many things happen this week.
I don't understand why do some bitches/bastards really exists in this world?
Yes, I'm talking about my classmates.
You can see how much I dislike my class.
I typed a chunk but now I don't feel like typing anymore.
So forget it.
Treat it as a part and parcel of life and I'm sure retribution will come to them sooner or later cause these people don't deserve to be a better person.
A leopard never change its spot.

I think I better go do my maths now.
Bye and Nights. <3

2008-07-15T22:01:00.003+08:00

Had Chinese O level Listening Comprehension today.
Wells, I've got no comments but hopefully I can score. :D

Racial Harmony Celebration tomorrow.
Gotta wear ethnic costume.
Borrowing from Malay friend. Thanks Nuraini. :)
I intend to buy a qipao/cheongsam for next year CNY.
15 going 16 years of life, I've never wore a qipao/cheongsam before.
Maybe I don't even have the figure, but I want to wear them.

Sent Mom off during Sunday Morning.
I miss her so muchhhhh. She's supposed to call me every night.
But I doubt she'll do so lor. :(
She's so busy there.
And I'm doing quite a number of household chores.
Super tired. :(

Okay, I think I better get going before I plop to bed.
Bye and Nights.

2008-07-12T21:27:00.002+08:00

Mom is flying to Hong Kong tomorrow for business trip.
Not one week but three weeks.
Tell me how to live for these three weeks?!
I think the house will be in a mess. I think I'll turn the whole house upside down.
And I'm going to miss her.

Tons of homework to complete.
All on maths, I've not really completed one at all.
All half way through. :(
Sigh Sigh Sigh. :(

Prelims are coming and its gonna end one month later.
Stretched over for one month. Rawr! :(
Nevermind, I think I'll just stop here cause I wanna continue doing my stuffs.
Bye.

2008-07-09T22:51:00.002+08:00

Lessons and lessons and lessons.
My life sucha boring one.
Blah. :(

Watching the new channel u 10pm show-perfect cut.
About plastic surgery and psychology.
I shan't consider plastic surgery at all.
So fake and the stupid side effects are so...
And somemore super expensive.

I really don't know what to blog except for school.
Maybe LOLLIPOP. :D
Heh, Owodog.Prince.Fabien.William.Lil Jay.Ah Wei.
Prince. Fabien are the loves.

I think I beter get going cause I really really don't know what to blog, think this shall be the most boring-ist post ever.
Bye.

2008-07-04T23:22:00.003+08:00

Maybe one of the best way to release stress or what people say, venting your frustrations and problems, is to blog.
But I think blogging is also one of the ways to tell people your feelings when you don't even want them to know.
Well, the advantages and disadvantages.

If I can, I would want to make this a private entry.
Cause I really feel like typing some stuffs out but I don't wish to let anybody know.
I don't want to make it a private blog as it may be troublesome for some people.
I meant, if you have a blog=for people to read, why make it a private one?
Defeats the purpose of having a blog.
But some entries are too personal that have to be private but I don't know how to set private entries or can they be set? I'm not too sure either.

My english sucks, I don't know how to express my feelings out well, using the correct words.
I feel super inferior when I read other blogs whose english are super.
I don't think I can do well in anything.
Sometimes, I really don't know what to blog just like now.
I want to type everything out but I can't. I just don't know how to express myself.
And some are personal stuffs that I don't want to let anybody know.

So, I don't know what to blog for now but just to rant some rubbish here.
I don't think what I said in my previous entry makes any sense to me.
Tomorrow will not be a good day afterall.
Things don't really turn out the way it supposed to be.
Things are still as it is, but it did turn a little better.
I reflected on stuffs going on around me for this 6 months plus.
Many things had happened. Many changes going around, no matter good or bad.
No, I didn't regret going through all this changes and stuffs.
I learnt from all these lessons. I managed to 'grow up' in terms of thinking. I was not as stupid, childish, idiot as before.
I learnt how to handle changes properly but when now I look back on how I handled them, I still find myself so stupid and idiot.
Haha.

I realised that friendship is a super vulnerable thing.
Learn to treasure it before you lose everything which is not within your control.
Sometimes you take things for granted and you don't even know that eventually, you had actually lose something.
Frankly, I don't know what to say about the changes in friendship around me.
Most of them are negative stuffs.
I think I'll let nature takes it course, letting the people in the friendship, including myself, find our way back into this friendship.
It's difficult. It's unforgiven for some things people actually committed.
No, I'm not pin-pointing to anybody.
If the other party don't want to co-operate with us, I've got no words to say either.

Actually, if we take a look around us, there are much more unfortunate people around us.
We're considered very fortunate already as we can have what we want and whatnots.
For some, they actually cannot have what they want.
Friendship, relationship, kinship are all very 'fragile' at this age.
It's common having conflicts but as long as we try our best to salvage, I think that's the best we can do already.
Some don't even have somebody to quarrell with them even if they want.
Some cannot do what we can do.
Shan't say much cause I'm afraid I'll say something wrong.

I have to wake up early tomorrow.
I want to sleep after this.
Bye and Nights.

2008-07-03T21:23:00.002+08:00

I practically screwed up my whole O level Oral.
No, it's not the mid-year, the prelims, but the big big O.
I think I have a higher percentage of failing my oral.
I don't know what to talk about during the conversation.
I was uttering rubbish, not much things relevant to the topic and also the usage of the words.
I kept stammering, kept repeating what I've said earlier on.
Fuck Shitzx?! Tell me how.

Nevermind, it's over and nothing can change my mark already.
No use dwelling on it anymore. :(

Okay, I think everything's gonna be fine right now after a chat on the phone with somebody.
All this are part and parcel of life.
And this is the growing up stage where we are not yet an woman, not really a girl.
In the midst of changing where things start to turn sour.
Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day for all of us.
Things will start to change for the better.
Friendship will still continue like before and not drifting apart, turning sour.
People will stop being childish.

I shall go do my work.
Bye.

2008-06-30T22:09:00.002+08:00

1 more day to the big O level Chinese Oral.
I shall start to read up my notes soon.
Super brief post cause I don't want my mom to nag nag and nag cause she's been nagging and scolding me just now.
Oh fine, I shall be a good girl and go study now.
Bye.

2008-06-29T22:34:00.002+08:00

I'm super exhausted by the time I reach home everyday so I don't think I'll be blogging these few days.
Lessons end at 4.30pm almost everyday.
:(

Yes, I know Chinese Oral is coming. I'm not prepared yet.
Wth?! And I shouldn't be using the computer but studying.
I don't know how to change to be hardworking in sucha short time?!
Blah.

I hate my lessons, class and school.
I hate the damn timetable.
Lessons should not end at 4.30pm. I don't care if it's for our own good or because the big o's are coming. At least you end at 3.30pm the most. You can give us homework, but not listening to the teacher's voice every minute.

Lunch break should be longer like for 1 hour for us to rest and not a damn fucking short 30 mins when 15 minutes over after queing for the food and left 10 mins to gobble up all the food and 5 mins to walk back to class.
Totally no rest and still have to gobble the food and not slowly devour them.
What the heck.

We are in this class because we ought to be in this class and no, we ain't close with one another. We are just classmates or maybe acquaintance.
Maybe I just have this feeling that I just don't like my class?
Going to class everyday is so ...
I don't look forward to going to school unlike last year.
Last year was a super year with those fun classmates.
Although almost all are the same people, but as time flies, people changed.
Been through how drastically people changed.
Guess I've to accept to fate that people around me always changed for the worst and not the good.

Alright, I think I'll end here.
Bye.

2008-06-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

Exactly one more week to Chinese 'O' level Oral.
Wish me good luck and I will try my very best.
I did read through the notes that teacher gave just now and reading through everyday, starting from today.
I want to score well la.
Get an A for both subjects and can concentrate on the rest next year.

I also need to do e-maths practice papers everyday.
Yes, everyday so I can score well.
Bought the TYS yearly book, hope it'll come soon so I can do them.
(: What a rare hardworking/positive thinking of mine.
Haha.

Lessons are ending so late everyday. :(
Super tired. Sigh, what to do? No choice but to endure, hopefully the time will fly in class.
Been sleeping during lessons these few days.
Not enough sleep luh. :(

I guess my mom gonna nag nag nag at me for using the computer, so I shall go study then.
Bye.

2008-06-23T22:31:00.002+08:00

First day of school.
So difficult to adapt to waking up early in the morning and sticking my butt onto the chair and listen to those teachers monotone voice.
Blah, I hate school. :(

Feeling so damn tired during lesson and now, my lessons end at 4.30pm everyday except on tuesday.
Like wtf?! 4.30pm for 10 weeks to prepare us for prelims and O levels.
Maths revision on monday, Chinese revision on wednesday, A-maths lessons on thursday, Coursework revision on friday.
Only tuesday is free which is tomorrow.
YAY, I want to go home earlier.
:D

I'm so tired now.
I think I'll be dozing off soon if I continue on my maths work.
Crap, just a lame excuse and I did not do my history homework up till now when there's humanities tomorrow.
But I completed my F&N already, except for pasting the photographs and printing out.
Think I'll print out tomorrow then.
(:

4 periods of maths tomorrow.
Wish me good luck by Mrs Yip and I think if I do not hand up my A-maths stuffs, she'll grill me cause I promised to hand up to her tomorrow.
So I think I better do them before I'm being grilled by her.
Bye.

2008-06-21T23:31:00.003+08:00

School's reopening in 1 day time(excluding the remaining 30 mins of today).
:(
I hate school. I hate homework. I hate studying.
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

I'm used to sleeping at 2am/3am and waking up at 11 plus 12 noon for this week already.
Don't expect me to sleep at 11pm/12am and wake up at a damn frigging 6.15am?!
What the hell?!
I hate waking up early also.
I'm a heavy sleeper, I have difficulty waking up early.
That's why this is one of the reason why I hate school.

Oh yes, I don't like my class either.
I don't think my class rocks like other classes.
I don't think my class is united and bonded.
I don't think my class have the best classmates.
I don't think my classmates are friendly, nice people.
Conclusion: I think my class sucks alot.
No, I think my classmates sucks even more.
Classmates as in just pure classmates, not friends.
Get the difference between friends and classmates.

Well, friends don't mind our class or our class rocks or whatever.
But I still think this class sucks.
Different people have different opinion/comments of things.
Blah.

My homework is uncomplete, like obviously.
I actually started working on my F&N just now, but saved and decided to continue tomorrow.
I MUST complete my F&N tomorrow.
I really don't want to complete my homework.
I still left with History(SBQ), English(Compre), F&N(Evaluation), Chemistry(which I didn't even bring the textbook home).
Maths completed but tons of them are filled with blanks.
Maybe I shall complete my English tomorrow cause I left a few questions.
Maybe...?

I don't think I'll ever finish my History homework.
I'm sucha lazy bum, I'm so not going to write SBQ answers which is damn tedious.
And won't be touching Chemistry at all, hah.
So let's just forget that there's Chemistry homework.
~~Chemistry~~.

I also think I have to stop watching 'Lollipop' videos already.
I meant I still can watch, but not watching until 2am/3am.
'Lollipop' have the best dancers, best singers in their boyband.
Shall not compare them with 'Fahreneheit'.
Two different boybands, different styles, so I don't see why we should compare them with each other.
Both boybands have their strengths and weaknesses each.
(:

Very tired today, I need my sleep.
Won't sleep late today already and there's tuition at 10am tomorrow. Wtf?!
Okay, nights.

2008-06-20T23:00:00.002+08:00

Went out with Goh Jing and Andy yesterday.
Goh Jing got the NDP tickets so we went to the floating stage there to get.
Didn't really know how to go at first, but just walked along Esplanade Walk and mananged to get there.
Collected tickets and went to Marina Square through Mandrin Oriental Hotel.

Mango was on sale and hestitated for so damn long and bought a white low cut halter.
Goh Jing was psycho-ing me to buy and was so funny.
So I bought in the end.
Mango tops are really nice and their material are good.
(:

Walked around and then to Raffles City.
Was feeling so damn boringggggggg so I suggested to go to Esplande which is even more boringgggggggg.
Went to the rooftop garden and sat there and chatted.
Wasn't really that hot and it's windyyyy. :D
Not as bad place afterall.
So, I found another good place to relax and chat with pals.
:D

Oh yeah, I fell down.
Super clumsy. :(
Ah, wells, nothing much just some scratches.
:)

Went SCH today for the MOE music camp concert.
The concert was like only 1 hour?!
And then off to JE again for dinner.
Was super duper uper hungryyyyyyyy.
Didn't really eat anything today lor. :(
And super duper hungryyyyyyyyy now.
So just cooked Cup noodles.

Alright, I shall go eat my Cup noodles.
Bye and nights. :D

2008-06-17T22:45:00.004+08:00

Finally, transferred all the photos from phone to computer.
76 pictures. That's quite alot.
From the F&N execution til now.
I think my phone camera sucks although it says it's 3.2 megapixel.
Nokia's camera waaaaayyy much better.
Sulks.

I also think my blog is very boring without pictures, all words words and words.
So picturessss and I promise to try to blog everyday alright?

This was all the dishes that I cooked during the F&N execution.

I cannot upload other pictures.
I don't know what's wrong with the stupid blogger upload image thing.
They said some error. Shitzx.
Will promise to upload tomorrow. (:

Completed maths homework already. :D
Left with history, F&N and English.
Think will force myself to complete English tonight.
I always procrastinate.
That's a super bad habit that I can't seem to change luh. >:(
And because I'm crazy over Lollipop that's why I just want to watch their videos and hence, not doing my work.
Sigh.

Been sleeping at 1am plus and waking up at 12 plus.
Waiting for Lollipop's videos to load every night.
I shall continue watching their video already.
Night lovelies.

2008-06-14T23:25:00.002+08:00

The AEM-TRM ended yesterday.
Sad, I so miss this course alright. :(
I so want to have more courses like this.
So fun, especially field trips.
:D

Wore the heels yesterday for presentation.
Nope, didn't walk home bare-footed this time round.
Although it was pain.
:(

Visited uncle just now at TTSH.
He had an appendix operation.
Went to Square 2 after that.
Many many things in Square 2, shall go there next time.
Mondo's on sale. :D
Nice heelsss.

Trained to TPY and took 157 home.
Tired. :(
Gonna watch my Lollipop video and continue on homework maybe later?
Last week of holiday already, I need to complete that mountain of homework.
Shitz, I think I'll not be able to enjoy for the last week? :(
Sighhhhhhhhh.
Faster faster go to NP then can enjoy, but still don't know what courses to join?
:/

Bye, continue dosages of my 'lollipop' videos. :D
Nights lovelies.

2008-06-12T22:00:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is the last day of the AEM already.
I'm so gonna miss this course, although its quite boring but quite interesting at times also like field trips and stuffs.
Learnt quite abit from this and also, so much better than studying in class.
I'm gonna miss NP too. :(

We have to wear formal tomorrow. Argh?!
Presentation usually have to be in formal clothes.
Crap, I don't wish to wear that dress that I wore last week to that wedding dinner and also that heels.
That dress with flats is like so ewww...
It's nice with heels but I don't want to walk barefooted home again.
Although not much walking tomorrow since there's no field trip but I have to walk up the slope to the School of Business and Accountancy which is my class.
Shall I or shall I not wear them?

Many photos to be uploaded but I've not transfer from my phone.
Nevermind, shall upload the new craze-Fabien 杨奇煜.
Lol. Boy-craze again but it'll be a while only.
They're here in Singapore today but I couldn't go.
Well, it's okay anyway. Lol.

So E, here's the picture of the super handsome Fabien 杨奇煜.

He's handsome lar, but maybe not handsome as Prince but I don't care.
Lol, oh wait, he's NOT mine. Just find him handsome so don't say he's my boyf.
Haha. I'm so thick-skinned. =x

Alright, ending off with a picture I got from A's blog that we took yesterday at the Museum.

~~fattest~~ of all.
:(

Bye.

2008-06-10T21:06:00.003+08:00

Did quizes from E's blog.

Here is the analysis:
You are easy to understand.
How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: Summit.
You are stubborn, the size of this personality as seen by others is medium.
Diamond means stubborn personality.
You are also down-to-earth.
You are an opportunist.
Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.

What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?
You are like most others who take the middle track. Although you won't get over-worried, you are not too optimistic either. You overcome bad times after a while and patience will bring you happiness.

Here is the analysis:
You are persistent. It's not your way to get only half of your job done. You have an extreme character. You can be really nice to someone but mean to another. Anyway, your friends still like you the way you are.

All at www.quizbox.com

AEM again at NP.
Went ourselves this time round, met up with the girls and took 52.
Waited 52 for so long. >:(
Went to library again during lunch.
Went to URA after that, took cab there because I think something cropped up and don't have the bus.

Finally, tomorrow can wear our own clothes. :D
Alright, I want to watch my show. Bye.

2008-06-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

Advanced Elective Module today.
Quite boring but still okay, theory is definetly boringgg.
Doubt I'll take Tourism as my course but I want to go into Ngee Ann Polytechnic.
Although NP is not so convenient from my house, but still alright.
NP library is so damn cool. :D

Played UNO Stacko today with the people.
Hadn't played this game for so long already.
Super thrilling especially when the blocks gonna collapsed.
Screamed and shouted. :D
Fun!

Went to Singapore Tourism Board after that.
Found information on Assignment and copied.
Walked all the way to Orchard station after that and trained home.
Imagine wearing your school uniform walking along Orchard Road.
So ...

I'll have to meet them at 7.45am tomorrow at JE interchange to take 52 to NP.
Guess I'll have to sleep early tonight.
Bye & nights lovelies.

2008-06-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

Shall start from the Sentosa trip.
Went to Tanjong beach this time round cause lesser people.
Saw mediacorp filming shows there, shan't say much.
Applied tons of sunblock while other applied suntan oil.
Didn't really played in the water cause didn't bring extra undergarments.
Overall, this outing not as crazy as before but a more peaceful and relaxing one at the beach.
Just tanning, slacking, talking around.

Went for wedding dinner yesterday at Hilton Hotel and did something I'll never ever do in my life again?
I was wearing that 3 inches white heels and the pain was excruciating. It can really kill me.
When walking to the hotel from the bustop, I was already feeling quite uncomfortable.
Went into the hotel and had cocktail reception outside the ballroom, stood and finally, couldn't stand the pain/aching, went into the ballroom, found my table and sit.
Sat all the way but went to toilet, then continue sitting until around 10 plus then we left earlier since I had to go to school the next day.
Went off and waited for a cab at the hotel taxi stand, but none came.

Well, mom said walked over to the other side, maybe there got bus-stop, so more cabs.
Feet was already hurting like shit and still want me to walk.
Was holding mom's hand as my walking stick and finally reached the bus-stop after walking up a slope, crossing an overhead bridge.
I wanted to walk barefooted but no image. Imagine walking barefooted in the middle of Orchard Road?!
Waited for bus, then came, went up, stood for a while, got a seat.
Changed bus and then when it reached my house bus-stop, I changed shoes with mom but my mom didn't know how to walk and the heels were too big for her, she had to drag them.
So I cant stand the pain but to........
.
.
.
.
.
.

YES, walk barefooted home from the bus-stop.
People, don't picture the image in your mind, it's not-nice. LOL.
Hey, but at least I still managed to endure the excruciating pain from Orchard all the way to my house bus-stop.

Walking barefooted is definetly so much better than walking with heels.
So, I earned a blister and red patches on my feet.
That's the price you have to pay for being vain.
I don't think I'll ever walk barefooted in my life anymore?
And I wouldn't wear that heels for nothing except on special occasions.
I stand 1.7m tall wearing that heels. I know many people are much taller than me, you don't have to laugh at me. I know I'm short.
Definetly, I wish to be taller, at least 1.7m or better, 1.75m.

Went out for dinner just now and saw shoes that are on sale.
I almost bought another pair of flats.
Wanted to buy the heels but I know mom would definetly would not allow.
Haha, suffered once already but still don't care.
Like the saying goes, once bitten, twice shy, but I'm ain't.
I don't learn from my lesson. -.-
Cause I think heels are sexayyy.

Pictures next time. Sorry, really too tired and lazy.
LOL. Bye.

2008-06-04T22:10:00.002+08:00

Today's practical was still alright?
Didn't really screw up but I'm so dissapointed with my pancakes.
Had the most confidence in pancakes but yet...
Tried the most times for pancakes but yet...
No, it didn't get burnt, but just super super ugly.
The results was not what I expected.
Others was still alright.
Will post pictures next time, lazy to upload.

Many little stories happened during the practical.
And I burnt my arm/hand and they resemble canning strokes.
Was super pain at first but was okay after that.
And exhausted after everything, yes, everything.
By the time we went home, it was like 5pm already.
From 10 plus am, I reached school until 5pm then go home.
But coursework ain't done yet, left the last step, which is the evaluation and the photos.

Going Sentosa tomorrow.
I don't want to get any more tan like last time.
The tan last time hadn't gone away la.
Dad says if I'm going to get any tan, he'll ban me from going to Sentosa anymore.
E, if you're reading which I doubt so, Can we like come home earlier?
I want to rest cause I hadn't been resting since the start of the holidays.
I need to chiong my homework also.
Thanks.

Have to attend a wedding dinner on Friday night.
Shall doll up myself and wear pretty pretty clothes.
LOL. Having sectional on sat and I think I'll be dead since my 'ying zhun' sucks to the core.
Tuition on Sunday and will be starting Tourism course next week.
Time flies, 2nd week of holiday gone and 3rd week starting soon.
In a blink of eye, 3rd week will be gone and left the last week for me to enjoy, rest and at the same time, brush up, chiong homework at the last minute and buck up.
Guess I'll have to make full use of my last week of holiday since I'm free.

I think I'll get going then cause I'm very tired.
Bye Bye.

2008-06-03T21:38:00.004+08:00

Sorry for not updating yesterday cause I was super super super dead beat.
But yeah, pictures today.
:D

Pancakes. (:

Steamed egg, ate one mouth of it.

The Roti John pictures are so ugly so I decided not to post it up.
I'm so nervous and scared cause tomorrow's the execution already.
Pray real hard that I won't screw up like last year, dishes all sucked.
:(
I sucked at cooking luh.

I don't think I will be able to complete 4 dishes in 2 hours.
I need alot of time for one dish. Sigh. :(
And I don't think I'm confident in any dishes, although I did pancake twice but once for all other dishes.
Oh yes, I need to remember to marinate the minced chicken for the steamed egg.
And I have to plan my time wisely, no more slow and steady wins the race.
Hope my biscuits will be a success tomorrow.
Pray hard please.
Thank You.

The black and silver ones are so lovely.
So sexy.
Get them for meeeee. LOL.

Okay. Bye. I need to prepare more stuffs.

2008-06-01T21:42:00.006+08:00

Sorry guys, won't be able to post the pictures today.
As you know, I'm a big big procrastinator.
I promise tomorrow, I promise.
-hooks last finger-.

Went grandfather house today and did Roti John and Steamed egg. :D
Roti John was a success except that I didn't put enough curry powder and a little salty.
Cause I didn't expect it to be nice as it's the first time I'm doing it myself.
Everybody said it was nice. :D

Steamed egg was a failure? I didn't marinate the minced chicken, that's why it wasn't that smooth nor soft. Kinda hard.
Will do the Steamed egg tomorrow again.

Reached home not long ago from grandfather's place.
Had potluck party. Cousin's salad was terrific.
Healthy, full and appetizing. I love salads.
I love healthy snacks too, but not fruit bars or whatever.
Those sucked.
Super full and tummy super bloated.

Getting fatter and fatter, I think my tummy is the same as a pregnant woman with a 2/3 months old foetus inside her.
Maybe next time when i go out, others will mistake me for a pregnant teenager and give their seat to me in a crowded train or bus? LOL.
That fat. Realised that the belt have to be losen also if not I cannot breathe. -.-
The fats around my waist is always getting more and more but not lesser and lesser.
Sigh.
A woman sexiest part is their waist/curve, but I think mine is the worst waist you'll ever see.
The waist had always been my weakness spot for fats.
Fats just love to grow there.
:(

Oh, I've to do a survey from E.
Name 20people .

At the end of the survey choose 5 people to do the survey .
Don't read the questions , name the 20 people first !

1. Evon
2. Goh Jing
3. Ya Hui
4. Xiao Gui
5. Xin Tian
6. Aileen
7. Esther
8. Li Li
9. Hong Qing
10. Bee Suan
11. Rui Yang
12. Desmond
13. Xin Wei
14. Xu Rong
15. Darren
16. Kai Wen
17. Jia Hui
18. Khaycheng
19. Khayleng
20. Hanbin

-How do you meet Number14?
Xurong
Chinese Orchestra.

-What would you do if u have not met Number1?
Evon
Won't get to know this dumb girl.

-What if Number9 & Number20 dated each other?
Hong Qing and Hanbin
Haha. Professor and Spongebob. Cute.

-Will Number6 and Number17 date each other?
Aileen and Jia Hui.
They don't even know each other, do they?

-Describe Number3.
Ya Hui.
Kindest soul you'll ever find on Earth and skinniest girl with super slim thighs but keep complaining that she's fugging fat which makes me fugging irritated and annoyed at times cause i'm so much fugging fat than her.

-Do you think Number8 is attractive ?
Li Li
Yeah, she topped the class okay, and she's super clever, hardworking and pretty.

-Describe Number7.
Esther.
Super quiet girl. Hangs out with Aileen.

-Do you know any family members of Number12?
Desmond.
None.

-What language(s) does Number15 speaks?
Darren.
English. Chinese.

-Who is Number9 hanging out with?
Hong Qing.
With Lili, Aileen, Esther and that clique.

-How old is Number16 this year?
Kaiwen.
14/15 years old? Don't think her birthday past already.

-When was the last time you spoke to Number13?
Xin Wei.
Last friday?

-Who is Number2 favourite singer or band?
Goh Jing.
Not sure. Maybe fahrenheit?

-Have you ever dated Number4?
Xiaogui
Yeah, tons of times.

-Would you ever date with Number1?
Evon?
Yes, unless she don't want to date me.

-Is Number19 single now?
Khayleng.
Not sure, think so.

-What is Number10 Lastname?
Bee Suan.
Toh Bee Suan, if I'm not wrong.

-Would you ever be in relationship with Number11?
Rui Yang?
No and never cause he's my good good guyfriend.

-What is the school of Number3?
Yahui
Fuhua Secondary.

-Where does Number6 stay?
Aileen
Ivory Heights.

-What is your favourite thing about Number5?
Xin Tian
She's so sporty, pretty, bubbly, got the 'dajie' look and everything.
I think she's just perfect la. Really.

-Have you ever seen Number2 naked?
Goh Jing.
No.

Now choose 5people to do this survey:
Bee Suan
Hanbin
Khaycheng
Khayleng
Xin Tian

Will blog another time. :D

2008-05-30T22:04:00.004+08:00

Done with F&N, finally, but I guess I still have to edit some stuffs in the time plan.
And I did pancake just now.
:D.
Will post the pictures tomorrow.

I don't think I'll be able to go to sectional tomorrow. :(
Will give excuse letter.
I really want to go, but family stuffs.
Sigh.

HAHA, I'm so sorry E... xD

But because I flooded it first.
The main thing of this convo is that my pancakes are nice.
Not because it is not nice, that's why my dad don't want to eat it.
IT'S NICE!
LOL.
No, E's not that amusing to me, but at times.

Bye.

2008-05-29T21:51:00.002+08:00

I guess I'll have to go and sleep soon if not I'll be like today.
Dead beat, super super lethargic.
Cannot really concentrate during F&N.
:(
Somemore, my eye bags are getting worse.
Gawd, eye bags are the worst to cure. :(
Sigh...

Oh yes, I'd love to go to Paris in th future.
I want to visit the Louvre Museum, Effiel Tower, I guess I spelt it correctly huh?
The nightview there is gorgeous, breath-taking.
I want to go Shanghai and Hong Kong too.
I know that both the nightview is super breath-taking.
In Shanghai, the Pearl Tower and Hong Kong, the Victoria Bay?
:D

Okay, I think I'll make this entry another short one.
Hope I'll complete my planning tomorrow.
1 week of holidays gone like this, no homework completed.
:(
Tuition again this weekend, what a boring life.
Nothing interesting to blog about lor.
:(

Bye.

2008-05-28T23:53:00.002+08:00

It's quite late now and I've still gotta go t school early tmrw.
Shall give this a short one and will succumb t bed cause I cannot resist th temptations of my comfortable quilt and mickey.

Doing F&N today, will continue tmrw and hope I really would not screw up th practical.
Been watching on Mr.Jay Chou's videos recently and falling in love with him again.
I think I'll blame the starting part of Dandelion's Promise on th piano for tht.
It's sucha a perfect piece of score where you could find no flaws in this melody.
And yes, Mr.Jay Chou is th man!

I guess I'll go t bed now cause I'm really tired already.
Bye & Nights lovelies. <3

2008-05-27T19:27:00.002+08:00

WHAT ARE HOLIDAYS WHEN YOU HAVE T GO BACK T SCHOOL EVERY SINGLE DAY FROM 9AM-5PM?
I rather not have holidays.
Worst than schooling hours, like working hours, somemore we no salary.
-.-

Went t school for A-maths rememdial.
After tht straight away go find teacher and take report book, lazy t go back at 4 again.
Saw th results.
Okay la, quite shocked and satisfied.
Didn't exepct tht, thought will be like last 20 in class or whatever cause of my damn maths.

Completed th ace-learning thing.
Just pass. 19marks. :D LOL.
Thinking of going back t school tmrw for F&N th whole day just make me sigh.
It's super super super boringggg and have not completed th decision making.
Maybe doing later but I doubt I'll do.
zzz.

I want t go outtttt.
GSS started last week already. I so want t buy buy buy clothes, shoes, accesories, cosmetics, facial and slimming products.
Crap, as if I do have th time.

I shan't blog much anymore cause I'm too pissed with alot of things right now.
Bye.

2008-05-25T20:38:00.002+08:00

Watching th Sichuan Charity Show now.
Saw this on th net & on th show.
Don't wish t elaborate much.

抢救人员发现她的时候，她已经死了，是被垮塌下来的房子压死的，透过那一堆废墟的的间隙可以看到她死亡的姿势，双膝跪着，整个上身向前匍匐着，双手扶着地支撑着身体，有些象古人行跪拜礼，只是身体被压的变形了，看上去有些诡异。救援人员从废墟的空隙伸手进去确认了她已经死亡，又在冲着废墟喊了几声，用撬棍在在砖头上敲了几下，里面没有任何回应。

当人群走到下一个建筑物的时候，救援队长忽然往回跑，边跑变喊“快过来”。他又来到她的尸体前，费力的把手伸进女人的身子底下摸索，他摸了几下高声的喊“有人，有个孩子，还活着”。

经过一番努力，人们小心的把挡着她的废墟清理开，在她的身体下面躺着她的孩子，包在一个红色带黄花的小被子里，大概有3、4个月大，因为母亲身体庇护着，他毫发未伤，抱出来的时候，他还安静的睡着，他熟睡的脸让所有在场的人感到很温暖。

随行的医生过来解开被子准备做些检查，发现有一部手机塞在被子里，医生下意识的看了下手机屏幕，发现屏幕上是一条已经写好的短信“亲爱的宝贝，如果你能活着，一定要记住我爱你”，看惯了生离死别的医生却在这一刻落泪了，手机传递着，每个看到短信的人都落泪了。

母性的伟大不在于理智,而在于那种直觉的感情.
母爱总是这么伟大.
Tears formed on my eyes when I saw this on th show & search for it on the web.
:'(
Still got many sad and touching stories.

I shan't blog much today.
Don't have t mood t blog.
Bye.

2008-05-24T20:32:00.010+08:00

Many said tht yesterday was th last day of school.
Is it?
Or th calendar printed wrongly?
Th calendar wrote 1 month of holidays.
Really? How come we don't have?
It's worst than lessons.
Use sacarsm t understand it.

Went t E's house after school t bake.

Don't be fooled by th apperance.
Tasteless except for th chocolate rice, failed th first attempt baking.
Well, knew it beforehand when I was doing th dough.
Knew I'd screw this up cause th butter had melted and not enough sugar, too much egg and too little flour?

E being a nice _______(insert word yourself) did dumplings for me.

Very nice! Thank you E. :D

Went off t frontier t have prata again.
E's brother followed this time round.

Next shall be th tour pictures.

I'm getting fatter.
I just ate my supper not long after my dinner.
My waistline & weight is increasing tremendously,but not height.
Th fats shouldn't be on my waist, tht's th part where lumps of fats are stored th most.
:(

Many said tht I don't look tht I eat tht much, but I can eat alot.
Yes, alot. All th fats have gone t my waist, it's just tht you cannot see it.
So it doesn't meant tht I'm malnutrition or skinny.
No, I don't look skinny. I look like a normal schooling girl.

I don't know why girls love t say tht they are fat when they aren't.
Can't they just see a more fatter girl in front of them when they're complaining?
Rawr!
To those girls who whines tht every part of their body is fat or whatever:
You want t whine, whine t those who are skinnier than you leh. LOL.
Whine t me is like insulting me lor.
If you say you are, ain't I far worst than you?
Stop telling me tht I'm skinny, I'm averageeeeeee.
I do have fats too just tht you all don't see them cause I don't anyhow show my flabby fats t people. HAHAHA.

To those girls who do NOT eat because they think eating more will get fatter:
Please go and eat some sleeping pills and sleep forever so don't have t eat or go t th zoo and let th tiger swallow you up then.
I detest, looked down on girls who are like this.
Mad girls, wait til they're aneroxic or having bulimia then they know.
Everyday don't eat lor, become angel/god, don't have t eat one.
Rawr, yes, you know who you are.
Cause I'm pissed by saying & saying & saying & saying...
Forget it, it's your body anyway, you don't want t take care of our own body then it's your problem.

Guess what's this? I know it's mickey mouse, guess where is this printed onto.
You all should know if you read my previous entries.

And th answer.
TADAH~

Cute right? :D
90cents only lor. Damn cheap.

This is real, not fake. I'm only proud of this. HAHAHAHA.
Though I want it t be longerrrrrr like Ahmad's.

Bye!

2008-05-22T22:56:00.005+08:00

Today's tour thing was very tiring.
Slept when coming back in th bus, many slept cause all were too tired.
I closed my eyes and really, I didn't want t open anymore, too tired.
Was dreaming of sleeping on th clouds. So comfortable.
LOL.

Reached school, went t class and after lessons, slept again.
Came home, slept again.
I kept sleeping these few days afternoon.
Feeling so damn tired, and just plop! In a blink of eye, I'm on th sofa soundly asleep.
Super tired.
I need sleeeppp and I love sleepingggg. :D

Oh yeah, did quizzes with E just now.
Here's my ideal warm weather place.
FIJI, have you all heard of that?
Nevermind, I shall show you th picture.
Much more nicer than E's. :D

TADAH~, Here's my ideal warm weather place-FIJI. :D
The sea's so blueeeeeee. Very romantic & nice.

Sunset. Beautiful.
I want t see th sunset and sunrise with my loved ones next time.

I am tired now and I want t sleep.
Bye & Nights.
Oh yeah, t those lovely Sec 3 juniors of mine,
Take care for your 'super-do-not-look-forward' Malacca Trip.
But Enjoy there la.

2008-05-21T20:41:00.002+08:00

Elective Module courses these few days are super boring.
Tourism-( Tour Guide )
Don't think I'd want t be in th Tourism industry.
Maybe, maybe not.
I don't even know why I signed up for th Ngee Ann Poly Tourism course. -.-

I want t be in th fashion/image/styling industry.
More of the making up, clothes styling, fashion designing, image consultant...
But it's difficult t excel in this industry. Strong Competition.
Now is more of th Tourism boom.
I don't mind tourism though but it's not my forte/interest.
I'd rather go for interest than my 'bread'.

Having a field trip tomorrow.
Need t prepare speeches & stuffs in th coach or at th destination.
Friday will be th presentation in front of principal/VP/HODs/Teachers. -.-
Ohmy, Tour guide is really not suitable for me.
I don't think I can do well in those speeches la.
Last year Image Consultant course is much suitable for me.
Yes, I know I'm a vainpot.

One more thing, I hate periods.
Th bloody periods, it's super irritating, annoying, painful, uncomfortable...
I don't think I want t give birth t children. Super Painful.
Shall consider adoption like many people?
Crap, Why am I thinking so much?
Maybe I can't even get married or have a super good boyfriend?
How t adopt if I'm single.
Blah.

And another thing, I dislike skinny jeans. (:
I know alot will kill me, but who cares. HAHAHAHA.
Imagine someone fat, short, whose thighs are like pig trotters wearing skinny jeans.
Ohmy!, slaps forehead.
The butt would be sticking out, the thighs are covered like they're swollen or what, legs are so short.
I'm saying about _____ & myself.
Maybe I'm a little mean, no, wait, I live up t my name. Meanie, Evil girl. :D
I admit I did want t buy last time but now, I think it sucks.
Somemore weather so hot, I'd rather wear shorts.
NF shorts are still okay.

Bye.

When someone tells you your not good enough;that's when you know that you're better.

2008-05-19T21:37:00.002+08:00

Baked pancake yesterday, was a success, but can be improved.
Going t bake biscuits on wednesday.
Wanted t bake today but... forget it.
:(

Went t pray today at Expo.
Alot of people. Temple gonna donate those money t th Sichuan Earthquake.
So sad la, many people died. Many innocent lives were gone especially children.
Schools, buildings, houses all collapsed. :(
Prayed hard tht those victims who are still under the rumble of th earthquake can be saved & survive.
Watching th news now & another disaster again.
Why are there so many natural disaster now, & all are in Asia.
Like th Myanmar cyclone, Sichuan Earthquake...
Another minor earthquake again in Sichuan. Sigh.

No lessons tmrw. :D
I shall watch my show alrdy.
Rolling love is th new idol drama.

Bye.

2008-05-17T22:32:00.002+08:00

Went t th RJCO concert yesterday.
Rushed alot.
Met Evon at BL Mrt, trained t Tanjong Pagar.
Met JJ first then walked around, peeps came along after tht.

Here come th super pissed part.
Rushed all th way home, ran for the 334 til my heel hurts, cause I need t do E-learning before 12am.
So once I reached home, quickly bathed and logged onto ace-learning.
Realised tht th quiz was gone, asked so many people.
Told me tht th quiz was gone by 8pm, so after 8pm, there'll be no more quiz in th account.
WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!
I already told Mrs Yip t change th time t 12am and she said Okay Okay, 12am.
Then never change? Blah. Not my fault this time round, but was really pissed.
Rushed all th way home la.

Went for sectional today then JP with Evon gf after tht.
Was a fruitful trip. (:
Bought a pair of red slippers, super large hair clip, lip gloss, pink paper/plastic/beach bag, mickey mouse foolscap.
The pink bag was damn & nice, the foolscap too.
90 cents for each. Closing down sale. I can really be a very good example of an "AUNTIE".
Only 15 and can be an AUNTIE alrdy. -.-

Super exhausted.
Nights people.

With love,
Zitong. (:

Silences make the real conversations between friends. No the saying, but the never needing to say is what counts.

2008-05-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

Got back SS. Pleased with combined humanities results. :D
A-maths too, but well, at least there's improvement though I failed again.
48.333/100, Teacher say she help me round off until 50/100. :D
A PASS. :D

Know English Oral marks too. Not up to my expectations.
Well, know that before as Mrs Lim told me that I didn't really did well.
Sigh. Hopefully can score for letter-writing.
Have not received it yet. :(

A short post cause I need t do something else.
Bye,
Zitong

Results:
English Paper 2-10/25
Summary-13/25
Compo-19/30
Oral-29/40

E-maths Paper 1-22/80 (Like wth?!)
E-maths Paper 2-52/100
A-maths Paper 1-32/60
A-maths Paper 2-26/30( Sighhhh....)

SS-31/50
History-36/50

Physics-33.5/60
Chemistry-38.5/60

MT compo-35/50
MT letter writing-16/20
MT paper 2-45/70
MT oral-31/40
MT listening compre-14/20 (HAHA, wasn't really listening)

A memory is a way of holding onto the things you are, the things you love & the things you never want to lose.

2008-05-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

感激遇到你
歌手：胡杏儿&黄宗泽
专辑：野蛮奶奶大战戈师奶(War of in-laws II)

女：这是爱
承诺用心恋爱
注定要和你同步飞身爱海

男：谁人是最爱
全程投入去爱
有你每日也精彩

合：永远与你一起　
日后都只爱你
永远的心动
每日也令我回味
珍惜就像调味
能维系便铭记
爱你能教我幸福一世纪
Oh Baby, I love you, I love you everyday
永远的心动每日也令我回味
珍惜就像调味
能维系便铭记
爱你能教我幸福一世纪
感激遇到你

I love th song. Beautiful, though I don't really know what are they singing because it's in Cantonese.
Am trying hard t pick up Cantonese.

Got back papers today again.
Passed Chemistry but Physics pulled my Combined Science down. :(
I passed English compo marked by Miss WONG.
Ohmygod. It's a miracle again, I know I would fail that, but I passed. :D
Though it ain't a very high pass, but I'm satisfied already.
But English paper 2 really sucked.

Have not got back A-maths but I know I'd fail.
I screwed up both paper, either fail one paper or fail both.
But overall, I'd still fail.
Hopefully can get SS tomorrow.
Better get a good grade for SS to push up my humanities marks.
Because both of my maths would pull me down by ALOTTTTT.

Oh, got back F&N too. :D
I'm pleased. CA mark also please and got a Hello Kitty Lollipop by Miss Kitty(Agnes) Chan.
Lol.
Completed almost all for E-learning except th English forum thing & Maths.
(:
E-learning don't sucked that much because it's still okay. hahaha.

I'm so damn pissed, maybe I shan't use th word pissed.
It's like there's this bitch who loves t act.
Her acting is WOW! Fantastic, but unfortunately, her acting is not professional enough. Still cannot get Star Awards, sucha pity.
I've never seen sucha a desperate bitch, maybe she even willing t let tht somebody have sex with her? Who knows?
Act pity, as if tht person would go and comfort her, which is kinda impossible.
Fancy telling everybody about her stuffs and told my 'sista' not t spread when she told so many people, then 'blaming' my 'sista' for spreading.
What th?! My 'sista' is getting irritated & annoyed too.
Never seen sucha good liar, a bitch.
Act pity by slitting her wrist, crying? Getting emo? Telling people that she'd get emo if she didn't see tht person?
Walaozx. Use her brain la, I doubt she even has a brain. Ohmy.
Fine. I shan't say anymore.
Later I get slapped by tht bitch. I scared.

Good luck for th results for th remaining papers please. (:
Thank you!

Bye,
Zitong.

once upon a time, you and i were best friends. and that means, whenever you need me, i'm here. any time, anywhere, any place. forever.
-dawson's creek

2008-05-13T23:01:00.002+08:00

Got back so many papers today.
Marks was horrible right early in th morning.
E-maths, failed.
English(paper 2 only), failed.
Chinese, pass.
History, pass.
Physics, pass. Omg, I actually pass Physics which is a miracle.
Miracles do happen at times. (:

E-maths was horrible like shit.
Yes, I know my maths sucked alotttt.
Even beginning t fail E-maths now.
What the?!
I don't know how A-maths would fare with this kind of results.
A BIG BIG BIG SIGHHHHHHHH.

Oh yes, E-learning today. I think it sucked when we still have t go t school.
My computer is for playing and not for doing homework.
Crap, E-learning sucks wholelot.

It's 11.07pm, I want my sleep already.
Super tired.
Bye.

it's those simple things in life we never forget. it's those words we wish we never said.it's the happy endings in fairytales we want to have.and it's those unforgettable memories we want to rewind and live again and again.

2008-05-12T22:03:00.002+08:00

Mid-years are finally over. :D

Super glad that it ended already, but I know my results are going t be a huge disappointment again.

I screwed up my A-maths paper 2 today, as for F&N, I don't think I'll be able t score high marks.

A-maths paper 2 wasn't that difficult, but it just tht I didn't really study.

Sigh, I think I should bang my head against th wall and jump down from my house.

Crap. As if I would do that.

Went home first then went out with Evon girlf t th cafe @ frontier, roti prata.

Their roti prata and the milk tea super super nice.

After eating, felt so full cause th milk tea was like a super big cup.

Went t JP and walked around.

Went home at about 3 plus.

Saw Aaron, Gee Jing and Bee Suan on th bus. (:

Watched my show after that and still waiting for videos t be loaded on youtube.

Health check-up tomorrow. Sigh, I wonder if my backbone condition gonna worsen anot.

And I have an upset stomach right now.

My digestive system is kinda crazyyyyy and it feels uncomfortable. -.-

I don't have good disgestive system since young.

Not enough dietary fibre.

I wanna watch my shows already, toodles. :D

Don't envy anybody. Every person has something no one else has. Develop that one thing in yourself, and make it outstanding.

2008-05-10T20:34:00.006+08:00

Go ahead and tell me my dreams are unrealistic, and i'll tell you that yours arent big enough.

Today is such an unproductive day.

I didn't managed t do anything at all.

Just studied a little bit of F&N, and that's it.

A very little bit, I think I'll have t study later again.

I have t tell myself t do A-maths tonight, no matter what.

Trigo equations, logarithms, surds, indices 100% sure come out in paper 2.

Telling myself t perserve.

2 more papers baby, 2 more papers and 2 more days and I'm free already. (:

and then I can enjoy for all I want. Thinking of it makes me go a little mad.

Those who have finished your exams already, SHUT UP!

HAHAHAHA.

I'm still watching videos now?!

Oh please Zitong, will you just once get your butt of th computer chair and start doing your revision/study and will you just work hard now and enjoy later?!

I can imagine Mom's nagging but well, she's not at home right now.

And I don't think she'd nag at me anymore, she's given up on me long ago.

Hahaha, I'm just too lazy. L.A.Z.Y, yes, tht's th word.

My fingernails are long now and it's th first time I found them super irritating.

I want t trim them alrdy, getting too long is irritating and unhygienic.

Maybe after th exams.

Going t grandfather's house tmrw for Mothers' Day celebration.

And I finally get t eat home-cooked food. :D

I've been longing for home-cooked food sooooooooo long.

Been eating outside food every single meal.

No, it's not tht I'm lazy t cook but th house don't have anything for me t cook.

I don't even have a stove at home, mind you.

How pathetic is tht?

Unless I go downstairs t my aunt's place, then I can cook alrdy but I'm afraid I'll make a mess out of it, turn the house upside down.

And when my aunt comes back, she'll be flabbergasted.

Lol.

Oh yes, talking abt cooking.

I need t do my practical before th coursework execution starts which is the 2nd week of the holidays.

So I guess I need t test out at home maybe on the first week.

I'm going t retry 2/3 times at home first before doing in school if not, like last year, screw up th whole thing.

Got very little marks and very negative comments abt it.

:( I don't want history t repeat itself again.

Bye people.

I've t go.

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it's those simple things in life we never forget. it's those words we wish we never said.it's the happy endings in fairytales we want to have.and it's those unforgettable memories we want to rewind and live again and again.

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2008-05-09T18:17:00.003+08:00

Oh yes, 2 more papers t go! :D
A-maths was still quite okay, hopefully I can pass but everytime I say this, th results are like the opposite. :(
Physics was a goner, I think most probably I'm going t fail.
Chemistry was still alright. (:
Hopefully Chemistry can pull up Physics marks.
I guess I sucked at everything.

A-maths paper 2 and F&N.
Will do A-maths maybe tonight and study F&N tomorrow.
I need t score well for A-maths cause my E-maths paper 1 confirm fail.
Around 30 plus marks gone cause I know I anyhow write, not including wrong answers.
E-maths paper 2 was still alright but maybe I'll fail too.
I shall put more concentration on A-maths now, some parts are easier than E-maths. (:
I won't want drop A-maths anymore. :D

Friendship, just a simple word but means alot, alot, alot to me.
朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话
一辈子
一生情
一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤
还有痛
还要走
还有我
Sometimes friendship is not about how close we are, but th strong bond between each other.
Th ones that will help you when you're in trouble, th ones that will give you encouragement when you really need them, th ones that will not leave you alone when you need somebody beside you, th ones that are really your true soulmates, your best friends who understands you, who knows how you're feeling....
But do these people still exists? I doubt so, except for a few of my closer friends.

Tht was all in th past.
Th friendship between us was all in th past.
Time cannot rewind back.
We're avoiding each other t prevent embarrassment.
That's not we're supposed t do, but nobody take a step forward.
I guess none of us dared. Need plenty of courage.
Or maybe things are fated to be like this, once a super super close friend, now strangers.
Life's playing a fool with us. Maybe God wanted t test our friendship and gave us this obstacle?
Hah, so unlikely. No, it ain't an relationship though.
I shall not think too much. Let nature takes it course and we'll how.
Maybe things ought t be like the previous friendship conflicts I had where I was so naive, stupid to apologize to those fucking bitches.
Oh yes, I've not forgotten/forgiven those stuffs though.
They're bitches.
I'm somebody who cannot forgive/forget all these.
Call me a person full of hatred, I don't give a damn!

Bye!

2008-05-05T21:38:00.002+08:00

I guess I won't be updating after this post or maybe I do?

Depends on the progess with my mugging.

SS may/may not be a problem, depends on the question also.

Studying NHS now cause I'm so unsure of it as I just roughly read through.

Going through Conflicts, Deterrence and Diplomacy and Globalisation again later.

Please let either Conflicts or Globalisation to be out in the SEQ.

I'm more certain of those two, but of course, there's some parts that I've to read up again later.

Good luck to everybody out there who are having their exams.

Please let me pass my SS this time round, not forgetting E-maths.

Oh fret, E-maths gonna be a tough paper. Just don't let me fail will do.

I'll endure that 2.5 hours, sticking my butt onto the chair, squeezing out all the brain juice and I shall score.

MUAHAHAHAHA. Kinda mad, pre-exam symtoms.

-.-

Bye, & Jiayou. Mug hard. :D

2008-05-03T23:22:00.003+08:00

Ah Beng went for an job interview for a sales job. When the manager saw Ah Beng's colourful attire, his mind screamed, "Not this man!!"

Nevertheless he still had to entertain Ah Beng. So he told Ah Beng, "If you can form a sentence using the words I give you, then I will give you a chance!"

"The words are "Green, Pink, Yellow, Blue, White, Purple, Black".

Ah Beng thought for a while and said "I heard the phone go green, green, and then I went to pink up the phone and said Yellow. Blue's that? White did you say? Aiyah, wrong number. Don't purplely disturb people and don't call Black, ok?"

Ah Beng got the job.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Still got alot of jokes on talkingcock.com
I shall post one everyday then and Evon shall post the Dear Ah Beng column.
Was laughing like crazy when reading those jokes.
Shall post one more and end off my short entry. I need to do my Maths.

Here's one that works best when told aloud. Ah Lian went to the Emporium to look for knee-high stockings and approached a salesgirl.

Ah Lian: Loo ooh buay stocking kao knee boh? (Do you sell stockings reaching the knee?)

Salesgirl: Kao nee? Kao yeo, ooh. Boh kao nee eh! (Up to the breasts ("nee")? Up to the waist, got. Don't have up to the breasts, one!)

Ah Lian, realising her mistake, quickly corrected herself: Mm si tng nang eh 'nee'... si ang-mor eh 'knee'!
(means: not Chinese 'nee'... English 'knee'! But actually sounds like: Not Chinese breasts... I mean Caucasian breasts!)

ROFL. Bye!

2008-05-02T21:51:00.004+08:00

What shit! I did this SEQ question(below), typed out one full chunk of it and realised I had th wrong answer.
How far Hitler’s foreign policy be justified in the period 1933 to 1939? Explain your answer.
I typed out th impacts Hitler had for Germany and realised I was wrong.
I flipped t Chapter 6 after that and th first page of Chapter 6 wrote: Hitler's foreign policy aims.
ARGH! I've t redo everything. I doubt I can send t Justin by tonight.
:( Still got alot of ques.

Shall study on Hitler since so many are studying on Hitler and Stalin.
Both cruel dictators. Bastards.
Of course, Hitler is much much much much worst than Stalin.
I so hate Hitler right now. I don't know why there's this kind of people being on this planet _years ago.
Luckily, he's dead if not th world would come t an end.
Oh, and I don't find him handsome. Who does?

As for Social Studies, studied yesterday but not yet finished.
Still got many many impt keypoints t memorise.
History is much more interesting than that boring Social Studies.
A higher chance that NHS would probably be coming out so I shall go through NHS if I have th time.

Okay, I shall end of my post, shall go off t my Humanities/Studying mode.
Bye, Mug hard people for your MYE!. :D

2008-05-01T18:28:00.003+08:00

Did E-maths and studied Social Studies last night til almost 2am.

I think I study much better in th night than in th day.

Told ya I'm a weird person, Don't sleep during th night but study.

Studied Social Studies just now.

I'll be studying Globalisation, Conflicts and Diplomacy and Deterrence.

3 chapters only, I don't think I can absorb more than 3 more chapters.

I've not studied History yet, didn't even touch the book. Blah.

Will be studying Social Studies later again, memorise those more impt stuffs.

I want to clear off Social Studies by today.

Tomorrow will be studying on History and doing SEQ.

I want t score for humanities cause I know other subjects are more hopeless.

Weekends shall be reserve for Maths and Science.

E-maths, revision for A-maths.

As for Science, I really need t read up on everything especially Physics because I didn't really pay attention t the teacher from th start of th year.

Do more and memorise for Chemistry.

No more flunking of Combined Sciences this time round.

I'll go and bathe then have my dinner. I only eat brunch for th whole day.

Frigging hungry, Chicken Curry later. :9

I've been eating rice all this while and NOT doing sit-ups.

Expected, I don't have determination.

Blah, I shall do sit-ups tonight.

Bye people.

2008-04-30T19:17:00.004+08:00

I have History and Maths homework.
I have t study History, Social Studies, Maths, Chemistry and Physics.
(Chants them in my mind).
Yes, no procrastination anymore.
Procrastination is th theft of time, maybe I shall condemn procrastination from now on, but I doubt I can do that. :(
I'm getting so serious about studies now, but I guess it's only a matter of time that I'll get lazy again.
:( I'm always like this, a bad habit that I can't change.

Today was a super slack day.
Many teachers didn't come. (:
Did those teacher's work and slacked.
Channel 8, 7pm is showing "Wars of in-laws", th show I went crazy over two years ago.
Watched finish that two years ago, and showing on th TV now. -.-
Watched this show countless times already, getting quite sick of it.
But Bosco and Myolie are still so sweet. :)

越爱越难过 by Kenji Wu is so nice yet sad.
连朋友都没得作为了什么. :/
:(

Evon, I got tag okay. :D
I love, miss your blog.

Bye lovelies. (:

2008-04-29T21:08:00.002+08:00

Damn th stupid sorching sun and th humidity.
Feeling so hot and sticky all over today/yesterday.
Bathed and perspired again, then wanted t bathe again, but no clothes t change alrdy.
Frigging warm.

No maths tomorrow. :D
But obviously, there's maths homework/revision.
Saw my CA marks for E-maths and A-maths today.
Like shit. Got same results for both subjects. barely passed only.
I'm super super super disatisfied with my marks.
I really gotta work hard for this mid-year. If my results continue to remain like this for the next half of th year, I think i'll flunk my O levels. Yes, th word is FLUNK.
Even normal revision/test, I can barely pass/fail? How t score for O?
What th !@#?

I want t do A-maths revision now. I think i'm getting improvement in A-maths, just more practices and revision. (:
But i think i've forgotten the logarithms stuffs. Have t do more revision on that.

Bye.

2008-04-28T15:32:00.006+08:00

Chinese exam was still alright. Neither easy nor too hard, most said it was quite easy

Was terrible during Paper 1, I used 1 and 1/2 packet of tissues.

Kept blowing, tissues were all on my table. I think teachers were shocked too

Kept making the most noises in the whole examination hall/classroom. LOL.

And that Mr Bong kept kicking my chair during Paper 2, I know his legs are long.

Felt much better during Paper 2, was able to use about 3 tissues only.

And still having block nose now, like WHAT THE asklj?!

Going to have cough soon because of the damn phlem/mucus.

Shit you that damn phlem/mucus. Can you just stop bothering me during the exam times? I know you love me, but stop pestering me now. It's frigging irritating, annoying. I think i can flunk papers because of you, my stupid lover. LOL.

I'm mad.

Going to bathe later & maybe study/read again.

I began to like reading interesting storybooks like the PINK ANGELS/Books from that author.

Well, that's a good sign, ain't it? YAY, i shall improve my languages by reading more.

Chinese novels are welcomed too but some boring ones are a big NO for me. (:

Mysteries/Love/Friendships English books are love too.

No exam tomorrow, awww... That's sad.

The only good thing about exams is that you can go home after the papers. :D

That's the ONLY good thing about it, and many look forward to that, who doesn't huh? Tell me.

I've changed the format of my entries if you noticed, no need to change the html code at all.

LOL. I'm sucha dumb, went to search for all the codes to change like so waste of time.

Its like when you're having flu, tears will automatically appear around your eyes, seems like you're crying especially with the voice and the breathing part.

Its like crying. Oh, and I shall cry for _ days before that irritating 'lover' of mine disappear.

Mom told me to visit the doctor but forget it, wasting of money.

Shall use my own body resistance to fight against that stupid 'lover'.

I feel like taking out my whole nose/throat at times(when i'm having cough), clean them up and then put it back again.

Super irritating. RAWR!

Bye dear readers, I want to batheeee.
(:

Two papers down! :D

2008-04-26T12:31:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was the start of th nightmare.

Well, i've got no comments but hopefully i can score well.

English paper II, passage A was rather tough.

About IQ stuffs & th answer cannot be find in the passage, most of them have to use your own analyzing.

Source-based skills are applied too, inference skills.

Passage B was still alright, but the answers were longer than passage A although the marks in passage A is higher than passage B.

As for paper I, i did question 1 for the composition.

Write about an occasion about you & your family had an unusual visitor.

Most people wrote that unusual visitor as a person, but i wrote it as an animal(puppy).

Blah, the first thing that came to my mind when i read that question was not a human, but an animal can.

I think it should be alright since it didnt say whether it should be a human or an animal.

Many choosed question 1 & question 5(Marriage).

If i'm going to choose marriage, i'll die. I dont really know what to write.

Girlf was saying that she hope marriage would come out cause she read on it before, & marriage really did came out. She wrote that & i know she'd score.

I wont choose argumentative, i think i'll only choose narrative or maybe discussion.

Dont dare to take the risk on choosing argumentative, once out of point, penalise, then dead.

Was half-dead during both papers, had block-nose, sneezing, blowing out the mucus, feeling so terrible.

& Thanks to Ahmad for your bread, if not I think i'll be dead before paper 2 starts.

Chinese will be the next paper on monday.

I cant find my dictionary la, i dont know where the hell it disappeared too.

If i still cannot find, then i shall use the manual one, not the electronic one, but i doubt the electronic one has any battery too.

Sneezing & Sneezing...

The flu bug better disappear before another exams starts again if not i'll be selling tissue again like what th classmates say.

Having 4 packets of tissues on the table stacking up so nicely, 4 packets alot meh?

LOL.

Okay, i go have my lunch, then continue on the maths homework & start revising for other papers.

Bye lovelies!

EXAMS, SICK, NAPFA, DAILY RANTS.

2008-04-24T20:29:00.003+08:00

oh lovely people, the MYE starts tomorrow.
dont YAY please, it's nothing to be happy of okay, evon.
lol. & i caught the flu bug nowwww.
yes, now, not after the damn exams, but just the day before exams start.
-boohoo-, having block nose & sneezing today. :( :( :( >:(
terrible feeling.
no matter how sick i am tomorrow(touch wood, praying hard not to), i shall crawl all the way to school to take the damn examinations.
i shall sleep early tonight then. (:

did napfa-5 stations yesterday.
am so happy that i passed everything. (:
didnt fell during shuttle run. :D woohoo~
was so worried that i'm gonna fall cos' fell before & had develop a phobia for shuttle run, um, okay, maybe i'm exaggerating, but kinda true.
got an A for sit-up if i'm aint wrong. 33 for me is considered alot already okay.
girlf did 41 & she still thinks its not enough. perfectionist.

muscles aching today cause of those exercises yesterday.
well, i shall do sit ups again tonight if i'm able too luh.
ate rice for the past few days, dont really bother if i am/not going to eat rice.
doesnt make any difference, just that eat lesser & no snacks can already.
i still need carbohydrates for energy & basal metabolism since i've a fast metabolism rate.
:D

read on the different kinds of letter writing already.
going to read them again later & reading through composition book.
i want to get good grades for my english, i'm determined to get an A2 for o's for english.
in conclusion, i wanna score for english but i know it's difficult with having sucha lousy standard in english(vocabulary/grammar).
you all can know from the way i blog, the english is horrendous, okay i know that.
not like other people blogs, english is like so fantastic. i so want to be like them.
i want to blog well, speak well & write well but it's really tough.
having good communication skills will really help me in my future, in terms of career/family/social.
so i shall read more books from now.
i want to read twilight, seems so interesting.

here to wish everybody good luck for their ~~dreaded~~ subjects/exams. (:
bye! mug hard lovelies. (:

~~maybe running away from reality will not solve the problem between us.~~
i guess i should face it, running away is so not like Zitong, but i dont know why i did it this way.
i could even face even more serious problems happening during exams period, but i dont know why i couldnt do this time round.
many said i was just running away. i should have just face the matter & be more thick-skinned.
not to care about any embarrassment between us, but i cant do it.
i really cant, i dont know what to talk.
letting the problem being like that, forever just being strangers til we graduate?
no, i dont want this to happen. let nature takes it course? telling myself all this is fated?
maybe i should just inched a little since ___ has already moved a very great step.
maybe i should. (:

2008-04-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

current song: 搁浅
久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

clicked onto the jaychou playlists.
搁浅 came playing.
didnt wanted to listen to it at first, but still continued the song.
brought back some feelings?
felt sad, not emo, but sad.
had the sudden feeling of crying luh. dont know why.

我原谅不了我,就请你当作我已不在.
maybe i should stop clinging onto the past memories anymore.
they were once there but gone now.
i dont know what our future would be but i hope it'll return to the past.
being as very very very good friends again. we're more like strangers now.
but i know it wont happen anymore. time dont return to the past.
but at least i know i've treasured it when it was there,
i'm contended already.

shit me, why am i on the verge on crying now?
why are tears forming around my eyes? why?
trying my best to swallow back the tears.
okay, i'm fine already. (:

Mid-year is this friday.
i dont want to think of other stuffs, i want to concentrate on my exams.
i want to do my work & then call girlf maybe later.
bye.

i wanted to just talk to you, but i didnt had the courage to do so.
like what you said, just be friends again, but i dont know if i'll able to do it.
i dont know what i really want now. i really want to be friends again but i'm afraid to be hurt once again.
once bitten twice shy. i dont know if i should.
girlfriends told me that i should since you're sincere, but i was hestitating.
i really dont know. i want myself to forgive you but i just cant.
i dont know why, i really want to be friends with you again but something just stop me from doing so. i dont know what's that something.
maybe being too sensitive? i really dont know.
sorry.

2008-04-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling frustrated now lah.
the damn period. the super dry, frizzy, unglam, fugly hair, the undone homework.
ohmy, i think i look like some weirdo. -slaps forehead-.

having to face friends with new hairstyle was like so damn weird la.
once i step into the class, i dont know how their reactions would be.
i know it's like shocking la. & i know its ugly.
if you think its ugly, just tell me straight, dont have to say: "not bad la", when you dont feel it at all. i'm not pin-pointing to that particular person, but just what i'm thinking la.
give me real comments.

oh, i think i'll change my fringe again during th holidays.
just let th fringe grow & i'll see first. if nice, then remain, not, then change.
didnt get caught cos' that OH-SO-WONDERFUL teacher was (dont-know-where-the-hell-she-disappeared-too). :D
but mdm shurtini called me to pin up my fringe.
just pinned the short one. but took it off during lessons, none of the teachers said anything lor.
cant be complacent, teachers will catch me tomorrow.
gawddddd...

i dont like th format of my entry, i want to change it, shall figure it out myself later.
blahhh. i need to complete my e-maths shuqun paper already.
bye people!

2008-04-20T12:40:00.002+08:00

firstly, i broke my dieting rule.
i ate rice. i ate after 7pm. rawr. i didnt do sit-ups/crunches last night because of cramps.

secondly, i cut my hair, no more that 'super auntie' hairstyle, but side fringe & i think it looks ugly & weird at times luh. >:(.
& i know i'll confirm get caught for that fringe, the longer fringe is until the chin there, reaching the shoulders, how not to get caught? but pin up is super super super fuglehhhh. even the best teachers on earth will also catch me, not to say that OH-SO-WONDERFUL teacher.
didnt really cut the back, but trim a little & thinner. the auntie told me to keep long then reborn at the end of year & i guess mom allows. :DDD

thirdly, i had cramps last night, feeling terrible. moodswings & all.
i hate th feeling. :(

fourth, i'm having tuition later & i guess i'll fail midyear.
i'm taking o's(e-maths) end of year, i dont know how i'll be able to do well.
i'm very weak in every subjects now. i've been flunking tests for almost every subject.
i dont know how to do well when i'm sucha stupid, slow learner.
i hate myself for everything. blah. >:(((

i dislike my hairstyle now, the fringe is damn super short, keeps dropping down, not sticking to th normal hair.
th hair looks better in pictures. hope th fringe grow faster.
rawrrr.
& th cramps are here agin. bye.

2008-04-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

i am fat. the dieting project starts today. (:
i shall...
NOT eat rice.
eat only vegetables/fish/noodles/fruits/bread.
refrain myself from eating oily/fried/heaty food.
NOT eat after 7pm everyday except for fruits & vegetables,not even sweets.
NOT eat snacks during the day.
do 20 sit-ups everyday before i sleep.
buy a new hoola-hoop & reduce the waistline of mine.
exercise, shape-up at the same time too.

I MUST slim down my tummy by 3 months.
i shall give myself 3 months for this dieting project.
if i dont, then i shall continue, or this dieting project shall be forever.
With such a fast metabolism rate, i doubt i can survive.
No, i must have determination. (:
i know the start would be difficult, but i'm willing to try.

i dont wish to repeat this again.
let me say the last time: I DO NOT HAVE ANEROXIA OR BULIMIA OR WHATEVER EATING DISORDER!
the word is DO NOT!
so stop telling me i am cos' its irritating at times.
-.-

& i'm hungry now.
NO WAY, i shall do sit-ups first & then sleep then i wont be hungry.
oh yes people, dont follow me with this dieting thing.
you must see whether it suits your body, if dont, then stop.
cos' i think it does suit my body, if not, i'll stop. (:
i shall not harm my body in any ways because of dieting.

ciao~.

2008-04-16T21:11:00.002+08:00

i've not completed my maths homework.
ALOT okay, & difficult for me. :[
i must do them later(in a serious tone).
:D

i dislike thursday.
4 periods of maths tomorrow & there's PE.
fug shitzx. not recovered from the muscle aches because of sit-ups & pull ups.
how to run tomorrow? after my muscle aches recovered, i'll start on sit-ups every night without fail to reduce my waistline.
& chua hanbin, dont compare me with you cos' we're of different gender.
different point of view of our body. (dont anyhow think).
lol. :P

been reading my chinese novel during lessons. hah.
didnt even listen during physics, oh, when did i ever seriously listen throughout the whole physics period starting from january?
it's been 4 months already. times really flies.
been through alot during these 4 months, learnt alot, gain & lost alot, had fun with friends, of course, sad,depressed,crazy,emotional times too.
life is full of ups & downs, & this is where we learnt from.
(:

MYE is just next week, mind you, next week not next year.
dont have much time.
so i shall be a hardworking student.
mug mug mug (repeats them in my brain)
ciao~

2008-04-14T19:53:00.003+08:00

too busy & tired to blog yesterday.
watching death note II: the last name & preparing for chinese oral.

chinese oral was ....
i dont know, but hope i can score la.
ruiyang was reading so damn loud lah.
lols, if you're reading this, i know what happened during oral too.
its super funny how royston described it.
making me laugh like mad.
HAHAHAHAHA.

gotta wash the clothes later.
study for my a-maths test on trigo identities.
i guess i'll fail lah except for easy ones?
even the cosine/sine graph, i also dont really know how to draw lor. :(
shitzx.

i'm feeling so fat.
i have a very fast metabolism rate & get hungry easily & eat alot.
the more i eat, the more i feel so sinful,thus, fat.
i think my waistline have increased already. >:(
my waistline is freakin'g huge already & i cannot worsen it lah.
mine is not the usual waistline, all my fats are stored at there.
not the usual 23/24/25 inches, far from that.
Fat, fat, fat, fat.
i must do 15 sit-ups per day to lose my tummy & making my waistline smallerrrr.

dad wanna use the comp, okay, bye.

2008-04-12T22:15:00.003+08:00

very tired now but i still need to blog, like what i said from my previous post.
make an attempt. (:

got home not long ago.
YAY, i bought my white polka dotted tube. (:
bought some house necessities & personal stuffs too.
i want to go to bugis to get my cardigan, shorts & maybe skinnies.
i shall get a new black flats for perf too.

after this, i shall go do my homework cos' i didnt touch any of them yesterday.
procrastination. rawr.
sectional today & then lunch with people at CU.
dong gua cha. (:

oh yeah, i was so damn pissed off with that mrs chia yesterday.
happened during yesterday assembly in class.
below shall be our convo, a brief one, lazy to type whole story.(in chinese)

Mc: Zitong, move back to your place.
me: (using a super pissed tone) there very noisy la, i cannot concentrate if i sit there.
Mc: (use a super stern voice & stare fiercly at me) so you meant that you want both of them to sit together, even noiser is it?! many teachers have been complaining.
me: -rolls eyes & stare back-

who cares? i want to study lor & the problem is that, both of them aint sitting together lah. zzz.

During MT lesson, my bag was on the table, was doing my work quietly.
that OH-SO-WONDERFUL teacher walked past, took my bag & put on the floor.
she walked away & i took up my bag & put on the table.
she walked past me again & said:
put your bag down! i've been giving in to your alot of times already!.
me: -rolls eyes & put my bag on the floor-
she walked away.
blahhhhhhh. such a wonderful teacher huh?
bias against me.

shall end here, nidda do homework.
ciao.

2008-04-11T20:32:00.004+08:00

i shall make an attempt to blog everyday. (:
i want to type down all this so that it can be as a memories/recap in future when i read my archives.
i like those feeling.

a relatively good day uh.
but tons of homework esp maths.

E-maths TYS (14 questions, all are revision questions)
A-maths TYS (5 questions, all on trigo identities which i sucked at)
A-maths textbook (2.5 questions, all on trigo identities too)
the above can make me suffer or torture me cruelly.

chinese oral next week.
i'll try my best for this oral. (:
i need/must buck up already. no more slacking.
i shall do maths later.
gambattae~

my heart is thumping so badly just now cos' of some reasons.
not because i saw my crush/whatever. i dont even have a crush now. -.-
think the heart can jump out already luh.
having heart attack soon, i dont think i can really take this.
omg~. i didnt ever expect it to happen.
just recovered from a shock too. rawr~
feeling so confused. dont know what to do lah.
nothing to do with r/s.
too shocked to blog anymore. lols. kinda mad.

lovely heels, bought from xintian. <3
a black one coming next...

2008-04-10T20:01:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO XG girlf.
<3 you & like what Evon said, may you grow taller. :D

not much homework today.
just have to complete that amaths TYS which i doubt i would.
only do those i know.
& my own chinese 'o' level papers.
shall do them later.

girls are the most complex and most difficult to understand creatures in this world.
yes, i absoutely agree with this statement.
sometimes, i dont even understand what am i thinking/why i did this thing this way?
i dont even know why i did such a rash decision due to my impulsivness.
so contradicting?
backstabbing, being a hypocrite, gossiping about others behind their back is super common for girls especially during our age.
9.9/10 girls do gossip about others behind their back.
i admit i'm one of them too, but i dont backstab.
you may beg to differ, but i'll not bother about your thinking.

relationship is super super common at our age.
getting together, breaking ups, patching back & bla bla bla.
maybe some people do break more than once & patch back.
but i dont think 'forever' exists especially at our teenage years.
boy: i love you forever.
girl: me too. wo yong yuan ai ni.
oh, that's rubbish. maybe just cancelling out the 'forever & yong yuan'.
i dont know why people love to say forever. hah, that's so naive unless you already know your future, know that your future wife would be your current girlf.
but who can predict the future? who can know what's your future esp in r/s.
if you really love that person, let them go.
if they come back, they are yours.
if not, they were NEVER ONCE yours nor meant to be yours.
i'm not asking people to break up la, i'm not that evil okay.

i want to be a guai & not a lazy girl anymore.
i shall start on my homework.
homework time.

2008-04-08T17:39:00.003+08:00

i'm so fugging sleepy when i've just bathed.
weirdo, i want to sleep but my hair aint dry yet luh.
>.<

yesterday's oral was screwed up?!
i dont know, i'm not sure too.
maybe i really did that bad, not to mrs regine lim's expectations?
or maybe i did well? blah, i so want to know the results.
but sometimes, curiousity kills the cat. fine, i shall not know.
yes, mrs regine lim was my invigilator for oral.
but it's more stress to have a "super-close teacher/friend" to be your invigilator.
cause' you're super super super close already, & it's like so weird lah.
having to talk to her to formally. lols?!
i hope i can do well, it's prelim oral okay.

next week gonna be chinese one.
blah, i think i'm getting so damn weak in chinese alright.
the grades kept dwindling.
sigh. i dont know how luh especially with that chinese teacher of mine.
rawr! okay, fine, i shall not say much.

i still left tons of homework can.
e-maths TYS. (dont know)
a-maths TYS. (dont know)
a-maths textbook. (havent do yet)
how fantastic is my maths huh.
-.-.

today's bbf(tbs) birthday.
HAPPY 16th birthday bbf!
loves. <3, hope you're going to enjoy your sweet sixteen.
& please use that mug we gave you. :D

20/12/07
<3

2008-04-03T19:46:00.002+08:00

i'm irritated, i'm pissed, i'm fucking annoyed with myself.
i seriously totally hate this kind of feeling.
and what's worst is that not only do i have to deal with PMS this month, but the fucking sorethroat, the flu bug, the pimples, the super unstable mood.
fucking annoyed.

my dad was like telling me stuffs again, yah lah, my fault lar, my fault lar, but i cant shout at him luh, he did not reprimand me, but just talk to me nicely, so i just keep quiet.
when i was eating dinner, i bite onto my ulcer, the small ulcer i had. and you know it's super irritaing to bite onto your ulcer when you're already in a super irritated mood. zzzzzz.
and now, which is after dinner, i guess i ate the wrong stuff lah, a very little fried stuff which i'm not supposed to eat at all, then my sorethraot became worst. walaozxzx. damn irritating now lor.
yes, i know i'm pissed with small little duper small things around me, but i cant help it also. i also dont want like that one.

i know i'm not born with any birth defects or whatever is super fortunate already, and i know i should be satisfied stop complaining about my apperance. but i do have to whine sometimes too. yes, i know i'm NOT THAT fat, but the damn annoying pimples came out again at this period of time, it's super red & irritaing laaaa. and super annoyed & irritated with small little stuffs like this. rawr rawr rawr!!!!!.

i dont know if friendship problems are going to surface again. i really dont know.
maybe, but i seriously pray not for it to happen. i realised we're drifiting further.
nevermind, somebody tell me that i'm just too over sensitive, that's all. shant think too much.

that bumbler, fool, idiot, jackass, rascal, jerk, bastard, scoundrel. okay, that guy again. once i'm irritated, i'll be annoyed with every little single thing around me. so bear with me for whining & whining. you know how much i hate him, how much i seriously detests him. so just stop saying us. __

was whining & complaining to mom yesterday.
mom: something got into you today ah? crazy one.
me: i also dont know la, moodswings lor, i even almost shouted at my girlfriends cos' i was simply too damn annoyed with myself. because of the damn PMS lor.
mom: -silence-.

sorry girlfriends, if i did gave you all some attitude & talked to you all in a bad tone, cos' i was you all know luh. & thanks for tolerating with me. <3

& about the damn housework.
have been doing the laundry, drying the clothes, ironing the clothes bla bla bla.
and the washing machine is half-auto, which means i have to transfer here & there for draining & washing. tiring lah.
then dad was sitting there, doing his own stuffs.
i told him to help to wash or do some simple housework.
he dont even know how to fold the clothes properly lor.
he dont even know how to hang the clothes nicely. the way he hangs, until next year havent dry lor.
me: your family, not even one guy know how to do the household chores lor. all like pig like that, eat finish, sleep bla bla bla... even fold clothes also dont know. walaozx.
dad: yah lor, i also agree leh.
me: -.-, (still got the cheek to say)
it's true lor, the ANG family guys dont know/dont have to do the housework can.
so fortunate right, even their underwear is their wife wash one lor.
so this was the topic i was whining to mom yesterdayyy. rawr rawr rawr.
so unfair la, why the guys cant even do simple household chores?
i'm not asking them to iron their clothes or what, but just washing their OWN underwear will die meh? fold clothes also will die ah? walaozx.

enough of whining, feeling much better now.
no pictures for this post, so weird lor, whining then suddenly got happy pictures.
haha. anyway, happy belated april fools day. (:
didnt really enjoy mine.
ciao~.

i dont feel good.

2008-03-31T21:47:00.008+08:00

just an update before i succumb to bed, cos i dont feel well.
a little feverish.
may not go school tomorrow if i dont feel that well.
sigh. :(

reached home 2 hours ago.
that's was super late can, took photos after combined.
CO is fun fun fun. x) we rawk, we are super cute people.
got the neoprints from beesuan already. (:
head was heavy during combined, kinda giddy & feeling so unwell.
wanted to ask the bitches to shut the fuck up cos' they were fucking noisy.
but i dont even have the energy to shout at them lor.
rawr! :(

got sentosa's photos from aaron, darren, evon & beesuan already.
next up will be the some pictures taken during saturday, cos there's tons of them & i cant possibly upload them all since it's frigging big & slow...
& a little pictures taken during the phototaking sesison today.

almost the same as taking neoprints.
posed there for so long because of some technical fault.

more pictures to be upload in next post.
ciao~

2008-03-30T11:19:00.007+08:00

let's start from cultural nite.
everything should be a success right.
a very memorable night cos' it'll be the last time we'll be performing there & lz is not with us. :(
took CO photo after that.
shed no tears please, leave the tears for graduation.
aaron almost influenced most of us can.
i miss the batch of sec 4s too.

yesterday was the most craziest day i ever had.
the most craziest day i had in my lifetime.
i'll always be super super super happy & crazy together with the CO peeps.
went sentosa, & now we're all super badly burned lobsters.
my shoulder's pain alright.
the damn sunburn. :(
went to bugis with xg first, then met them at queensway.
went crazy, laughing like siao char bors/siao pehs on the bus to jec for NEOPRINTS!
the whole bus was super super noisy, people kept looking behind.
once we alighted, i guess the bus had peace. haha.
went out from 9am & reach home going to 11pm. WHOLE DAY being crazyyyy.

pictures below will talk. (WE ARE VERY VERY CUTE PEOPLE.)

had more pictures but i've not loaded mine into the computer.
& will upload once i get those photos from aaron, darren, evon digital camera.
hence, for the time being, see all the cute photos first.
thank you.

2008-03-24T21:35:00.003+08:00

school's so boring as usual.
teacher's voice are so damn monotonous.
lessons are so dead.

i dont know how did i survive today's lessons, which i dread the most.
4 periods of maths, 4 periods of combined sciences.
luckily, time flies, it's a neutral thing. (:

CO after that, rained heavily & thus, we cant go home.
so waited in the aesthetics room for th rain to stop/get smaller, but to no avail.
the rain didnt stop neither did it went smaller.
& still we had to go home luh.

cultural nite rehearsal tomorrow, guess it'll be ending quite late.
going through the rehearsal twice & i'm sure there'll be much waiting, waiting & waiting.
debriefs & stuffs.
bla bla bla...

am going to rush my english homework, have not studied for chinese test tomorrow.
shant bother/care about the chinese test, or shall revise tomorrow.
or maybe shant bother about that english homework, copy tomorrow in school.
i shall seeee cos i'm exhausted.
i'm sleepy, tired, dead beat, irritated, annoyed, frustrated, and maybe having th moodswings.

i want to run to my bed & plop, i shall lie there.
ciao~
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Laugh at yourself first, before anyone else can.
-elsa maxwell

sooner or later we all choose a path. sometimes you never look back, and sometimes life forces you to.
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2008-03-20T20:50:00.002+08:00

hadnt been blogging for days.
busy nowadays, that's just an excuse but just lazy.

got back our report slips today.
i've not let my parents see it.
i dont know how to face them.
i failed 9 class tests.
2 common tests.
one of the worst results i've ever had.
the one with the most underlines & bold.
i really ought to buck up, if not i'll fail terribly for MYE.

& again, mrs yip was scolding the whole class everyday for not doing stuffs.
i didnt do that unit at all & her pace of teaching was so damn fast.
i cant catch up at all alright. i dont understand.
i was busy doing my own stuffs, didnt really bother to listen to what she says.
didnt bother to ask her questions that i dont know but in the end, i still had to pass up the other units that i did but many blanks.
surely getting scoldings from her next week.

many many homework this work since tomorrow is good friday.
teachers used that as an excuse to add another ton to our current work.
i dont know how can i cope with all these workloads.
i'm getting so damn slack this year & i dont know why.
no more playings, no more slackings, which i always tell myself but no, i seldom put words into actions.
i dont know how can i be more hardworking when the dreaded two subjects of o's are coming.

i dont want my results to be the same as this time round.
i want the results to be nicer the next time, at least an improvement from the last time. & of course for o's, i want the best.
sighhhhhh. :/
enough of rantings.

been having sorethroat & cough. -sulks-. :(
too heaty, not enough of sleep after camp, ate fried stuffs after camp & lead to sorethroat, then cough.
hopefully i can get well before cultural nite.
hopefully i wont screw up cultural nite pieces.
just pray, hopefully.

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Don't ever give up. Even when it seems impossible, something will always pull you through. The hardest times get even worse when you lose hope. As long as you believe you can do it, you can. But when you give up, you lose.

Think before you act, because you never know how your actions will affect the others around you. A small thing to you could mean the world to someone else. The smallest gesture, the slightest hesitation, or the tiniest hint. It all means something. And although no one knows exactly what, everyone knows it is important.

Maybe one day you'll be better, you'll be smarter. More grown up and a better son or daughter. And a real good friend, and you'll be awake. You'll be alert, you'll be positive though it hurts. And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends and you'll be a real good listener. You'll be honest, you'll be brave, you'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful. You'll be happy.
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CAMP

2008-03-16T12:14:00.003+08:00

the camp was fun. (:
& the day before, fell down during ice-skating.
the butt hurts alot. :(

the nightwalk + mystery game was super scary luh.
the ghost stories about the school.
the backstage, the cleaner, the study area, the bla bla bla...
super super scary, was telling myself not to think of it.

the morning PT was making my muscles ache.
sectional + combined yesterday after camp.
super super super exhausted.
i need my sleep.
came home & had 2 hours of sleep.
was force to wake up for dinner/buffet at sakura.
then homed again, & slept again.

very tired, didnt had a good sleep last night.
head's so heavy & giddy now. :(
i dont want school tomorrow.
homework not completed, not even one.

enough of nonsense, homework time.
bye.

maybe the best thing to do is stop figuring our where youre going, & just enjoy where you're at.

And maybe, there are really days that offer answers. Maybe, in the midst of searching for what we want to find, we discover something else.

2008-03-13T11:20:00.003+08:00

been watching revolving doors of vegenance on channel u.
damn nice luh.
tonight's the last episode. woots~.

was tooo tired these few days.
slept at 8pm on tuesday, imagine, 8pm.
that was so damn early can.
& woke up at 7 plus am the next day, super super super tired.
cos slept at 1am on monday.
finally completed the F&N.

& going ice-skating later.
i cannnot fall down, no way.
tomorrow is the damn CO camp.
how to enjoy the camp when the bloody period came?
that's why i say i cannot fall down if not....the consequences hard to bear la.
lol.

Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what it's like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.

Growing up is never straightforward. There are moments when everything is fine, and other moments when you realize that there are certain things that you'll never get back, and certain people that are going to change and the hardest part is knowing that there's nothing you can do except watch them. & realize everything is going to be different.

SCREWED UP

2008-03-10T23:54:00.002+08:00

ALL THE RESEARCH I HAD DONE IN THE THUMBDRIVE WENT MISSING.
GONE. DISAPPEARED. MISSING, FOR ALL I CARE.
DONT FEEL LIKE TYPING OUT WHAT HAPPENED.
OH YEAH, IT'S MY MISTAKE.

WONDERFUL.LOVELY.GREAT.FANTASTIC.
I SPENT HOURS IN SCHOOL DOING THAT DAMN RESEARCH WAS ALL GONE.
I RE-DO-ED EVERYTHING.
I HAD ALMOST COMPLETED THE WHOLE RESEARCH CANNNNNN.
SO DAMN PISSED OFF.
FUCKED UP LAH.

SHIT. RAWR. DAMN. THAT DAMN THUMBDRIVE.

but peeps, i've done it all over & completed most of them within an hour.
WOOHOO~. i'm now left with two summaries and plus some editting.
i managed to type those stuffs i spent doing 3-4 hours in the computer lab in 1 hour at home just now.
SUPER SUPER SUPER HAPPY.
i better go save my work first if not i'll gotta re-do everything again.
NO WAY. lesson learnt.

saved in both computer and thumbdrive.
i'm so gonna get a new bigger space thumbdrive.
mine is only 256MB, so small alright.
MP3 is only 512MB, not enough lor.

i've not touched on any homework yet except this F&N.
spent hours in school today doing F&N.
tomorrow F&N again.
wednesday-maths remedial & F&N from 8am-5pm.
thursday-hopefully i no need to go back, dad allows me to go shopping laaaa. hahaha.
friday-CO CAMP
saturday-CO CAMP + SECTIONAL PRACTICE + TUITION(tentatively)
holidays=no holidays.
back to school almost every single day.

i really hope that i no need to go back on thursday.
i want to get that black/white dress. white polka dotted tube. grey/red/black cardigan. black patent heels.
i dont care whether my mom says its ugly or forbid me, as long as i think it's nice, i'm just buying.
the hand super itchy to buy stuffs lor.

& hopefully the shop still do have those stuffs i want.
my mom says i look super awful in skinnies.
the butt is super big. rahhhh, i know that luh.
but skinnies are nice can.

sometimes i feel so ugly, whenever i look into the mirror, i just feel like tearing off my face, it's like so uglyyyyyyy. i cant stand myself tooooooo...
pimply, oily, fats on the face. ewwww. i'm also disgusted by myself too.
sometimes, i dont dare to face people cos i know i'm ugly, i know my face sucks then i dont want to talk to them or face them but cannot lah.
& I AM FAT. i dont have to repeat this again & again can.
stop telling me that i'm skinny bla bla bla...
i, myself know my body the best/the most.
no other people know my body better than me or maybe expect my mom?!
YES. I AM FAT. I AM. i look into the mirror or any reflection.
FAT IS THE WORD. NO, i'm not skinny at all.
& yes, my hairstyle & me wearing that damn glasses sucks too.
i guess i look more like an old auntie going to the market than going to school huh?
i want to get a new hairstyle, trying out different styles.
reborn/curls. i shall let it grow longer then get either of them.
i need new fringes too but new fringes are gonna covered up my forehead which makes it more pimply. SIGHHHHHHH.
my mom forbids me to do contact lenses, she says i dont know how to take care of my eyes if i'm gonna get contact lense. i want, i dont want this stupid glasses anymore.
i feel that if i wear contact lenses, my eyes will be nicer but nah, i dont think it'll make me prettier but just more nicer appearance.

oh yeah, i want bigger boobs can.
my boobs are like um, okay though not that small but i want bigger boobs.
i dont want to be flat lah. lols.
push-up bras are the next thing i'm gonna buyyyyy.
i dont think i look good in any clothes lor.
my curves also so uneven because of my bone structure then my back is hunched, wearing any clothes aint nice lah, not even t-shirts/printed tees.
make me look so fattttttttttt. :( i guess the colour i can only wear is black/white?
sighhhh.

my hair is like so dry & frizzy too.
rebonding it will make it worst. i dont know what to do luh.
i want it to be straight & silky.
sighhhhh.

it's not acting pity or whatever when i'm ranting all these rubbish here but really lor.
that's what i feel. i dont expect you to tell me that oh, you're so skinny already, bla bla bla & i dont think anybody would say that either.

bye.

EXHAUSTEDZX.

2008-03-07T23:04:00.003+08:00

went jp just now with mom.
dinner-ed there. shopped there.
super tired now.

last day of term 1.
time flies.
many things happened just for a term.
i dont know if i'll be able to cope with 3 other terms & 'o' levels.
i doubt myself.
i'm not confident of myself. i'm unsure.

sectional tomorrow.
after sectional, tuition.
can faint.
though march holidays are here, i dont think it's a holiday.
there's no holidays for secondary 4 pupils, that's what our teacher told us.
who dare to say there's holidays for sec 4 pupils huh?! & that's what mrs chia said.
shit her. freak her. damn her.

pools of homework.
i need to sleep.
nights people.
:D

Fate is like a strange unpopular restaurant filled with odd waiters who bring you things you never ask for and don't always like.
-Lemony Snicket

2008-03-04T20:24:00.002+08:00

i failed combined sciences for the very first time.
physics was the one who pulled down.
chemistry was just a pass.
i dont know how to cope with physics anymore.
i totally dont listen during physics lessons, i'm super not interested in physics & i hate physics.
there's still tuition homework for physics.
i shall see if i will spare some time to do anot.

super cold today can, was shivering.
so sleepy during chinese test. i'm so gonna fail that chinese test.
i'm still left with chinese compo, e-maths work, english work not yet done.
lovely, & i still wanna watch my show later.
shitass.

seriously i didnt expect to get sucha high grade for english.
really, i'm not boasting or whatever crap here, but yes, i really did not expect that.
i was basically writing whatever i thought down onto that paper.
tenses, spelling, expressions were not intact.
vocabulary's super poor.
i dont know how to do well for next year english 'o'.
super important alright.

ulcer's getting super pain.
got no mood to do anything, neither eating nice stuffs.
super tired and moody during the evening & dad was yelling at me.
another shittyass.

moodswings again. frustrated easily especially with the damn ulcer,
with the tons of homework undone, with the laziness in me, with the negative attitude i have, with being to live in this super realistic world.
it's not that i'm negative, but it's realistic.
so dont be an optimistic, it wont do much good for you anyways.

i love people who make me laugh. i honestly think it's the thing i like most, to laugh. it cures a multitude of ills. it's probably the most important thing in a person.
-audrey hepburn

ciao~

2008-03-01T23:14:00.002+08:00

common test finally over.
& i passed my e-maths, WOOHOO~.
25/50. :D
chemistry-25.5/50, i didnt really study. didnt put in effort.
failed a-maths as usual-19/50, alot alot of careless if not can pass lor.
zzz.

i really need to buck up for mid-year already, MUST pull up my socks.
'o' level this year, cannot slack/play anymore. no time already la.
no time to care whether how people look at me, no time to bother anything.
must study & do well in both academic & cca.

went out with peeps today.
bugis, then walked around/shop alone.
bought school shoes.
reached home not long ago.

i'm super tired.
i dont know what to blog.
my results sucks.
dont have the 'feeling' to blog.
exhausted.

super scared by that manhunt in singapore.
that terrorist. i dont want to be back so late anymore.
i'm very scared la. zzz.
but i know he aint armed with any weapons.
but it's still not safe.

super super super tired.
i want skinnies. i want dresses. i want heels.
find the suitable one for me.
oh, i hate myself for being so random right now.
blahh. i know super no link.

nights, bye.
super brief & super random post.

2008-02-26T20:59:00.002+08:00

physics today was ____.
i've got no comments, find it quite tough though.
hopefully can pass, but i know my drawings were quite wrong.
sighhh.

chemistry tomorrow.
i need to studyyyyyyy.
bronze=copper + tin
brass=copper + zinc
limestone=calcium carbonate which is added in the blast furnace to remove impurities.
coke is usually made up of carbon.
reactivity series: K,Na,Ca,Mg,Al,Zn,Fe,Su,Pb,Cu,Ag,Au.
rusting can be prevented by painting, greasing, galavansizing...
all the above i type whatever i remember in my brain okay, not copy one hor.
if copy, i think more la. haha.
still must study the equations.

am turning into a crazy bitch soon. lol.
yes, getting crazy again.
because of you know who.
he thinks i'm asking him boliao questions when i asked him whether he detests me alot alot alot?
actually, i want to change place & i need his cooperation so we can change place.
since he dont like sitting with me, neither do i like sitting with him, if i say i want to change place, i know teacher wont allow.
both of us have to tell teacher so that we can change.
if he detests me & hate sitting beside me, then we can change.
rawr him la, still say i ask him boliao question & told me not to be disgusting.
like as if i want to talk to him. zzz.

some brainless, hairless, disgusting jerks like him ought to be punished.
i believe in karma, what's goes around comes around.
his punishment/retribution for his super foul mouth will come sooner or later.
who is he to say me when he's one disgusting & brainless jerk.
eeeeeeeeee......

okay, gonna watch my show & study chemistry.
adios~

COMMON TEST PERIOD

2008-02-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

it's the common test.
e-maths is totally cannot make it.
i know i'll confirm fail.
i think 20 over marks flew away.
bye lovely marks.

even the class champion & professor didnt had the time to complete & they dont even know how to do some.
so stupid people like me, tell me how to do those questions?
left alot of questions blank, didnt know how to do.
sighhh. an express paper.
& i'm taking e-maths 'o' this year.
TELL ME HOW?! HOW?! HOW?! HOW?!
i think i'll fail this year e-maths 'o', but i dont want to retake next year.
i want to concentrate on other subjects next year like coursework which is super time consuming.
i'll have to score for this year e-maths 'o' no matter what.
at least a B3 & i'll be sastisfied.

previous entry was just a crazy woman blabbering out all her frustrations.
but anyway, stuffs settled.
though there's still little stuffs about it, but i can, will & must tolerate.
it's just little stuffs. i must tolerate.
although i really feel super uncomfortable sitting with that person.
i want to change place.

tomorrow's physics.
i dont know how but hopefully i can pass.
chemistry's dead too but i really want to pass my combined sciences.
have to depend on combined sciences/humanities & my languages to pull up my marks since my maths=CANNOT MAKE IT.
sighhhhhhhh. :(

tutor did taught me physics on saturday & could still remember.
those formula & stuffs.
revising through it later again & again.
let me pass physics tomorrow please. thank you.

a-maths is a totally (i dont know what to say)
i've got nothing to say anymore.
my brain's getting super tired. i totally dont understand the sine & cosine curve.
rawr that mrs yip la.
but at least i understand some parts of it. (:
thanks aileen for teaching though. (:
& those people who taught me.

gohjing broke down today.
dont get so stressed up darling, just relax & try to understand as much as possible.
if cant, then dont force yourself. <3.
:D

gonna study that damn physics again.
i so miss mr lim yu kee's teaching.
i so miss him, i want him to teach us back though it'll be strict but at least it's fun & interesting.
& most importantly, i totally understand his teaching okayyyyy.
he uses interesting & easy to learn methods to teach us.
rawr him, why he want to be a VP la? come back to fuhua please.
come back & be our physics teacher.

ciao then.

i dont understand myself

2008-02-20T16:30:00.004+08:00

things are getting worst each day.
you have already stepped over the boundary of my tolerance.
so shut up & stop your nonsensical stuffs.

sometimes, i really dont understand myself.
i dont know what i really want actually.
it's just like you dont understand how am i feeling & you said you understand when i dont even understand what i want & dont expect you to understand but you said you understand which was just lying to me, why cant you just tell me the truth & tell me you dont understand instead of lying to me saying you understand?
forget it, i know most people dont understand.
i dont understand myself at all. i dont really know what kind of person am i, i dont know why i'm so happy at this moment then just a blink of eye later, i teared. i dont know why, maybe it's caused by moodswings but it's not as if it wont end. i just dont know, dont understand myself.

i dont like being in this kind of situation, who does? you say you understand how i was feeling but no, you dont at all cause you've not been in this situation before, so you wont understand how i feel. & even if you do understand, i wont believe cause i dont even understand myself, so how am i going to believe that you understand how i felt? i dont expect others to understand me but i just need a listening ear, that's all.
forget everything of what i just said, just ignore me.
i dont even understand what am i typing too. blahh...

the feeling sucks. who likes to be said everyday in class? to be disturbed by some ____(no words/vulgarities are suitable to described them, not even the world's most vulgar vulgarities cause they're not even fit to scold vulgarities, they're worst than scolding that)
who likes to be insulted by those ___ everyday? who likes their self-esteem to be crushed by those ___ every single day? who likes their diginity to be insulted every minute of the day?
being in this world is already such an unhappy thing, i dont know why some ____ still love to make others lives a worst one, as if they're leading a super carefree life.

if they think they're that perfect, i'm so sorry, nobody in this world is perfect, no matter who you are, you shouldnt critisize/insulting anybody.
i thought only girls backstabb people/gossip people behind their back, i didnt even know that guys do that too.
oh, so i think they're one of the girls. some cowards who love to gossip about others behind their back.
they're already getting 16, 5 more years to freedom & they're still acting so childish. i dont think they are growing up when we people are becoming more & more sensible, they're becoming more & more childish, oh, that's so abnormal.

if you hate me, tell me straight. you dont have to act as if nothing happen & then backstabb me/spread rumours about me.
i hate beating around the bush. tell me straight if you really hate me.
tell me why you hate me, list out the countless reasons that you hate about me.
yes, i know, in your eyes, i'm a super duper uper disgusting girl whom you would want to vomit when you see me with a super fat body, pimply face, short & fat legs, hairy, & somebody who smell like shit, i know.
you dont have to remind me of my flaws, i know where i stand.
you dont have to spread rumours about me behind my back, i do have ears, i know what are you spreading.
i know you even told people that they were blind to fall for someone like me. i know that.
but i know you dont even care how others feel when you insult them, so what for should i tell you how i feel? you wont bother anyway, you wont even care in any case.
you're not those people who can talk sense into, just a _____.
you think you're always in the right, the perfect guy who is every girl's mr right which is totally wrong.
then shall i spread to other girls that they were blind to fall for somebody like you?
no, i wont, i wont do such childish actions when i'm turning 16 this year, unlike you.

if you think sitting with me is a huge torture for you, your life is gonna be ruined by me or whatever, then it's either you go or i go. i guess i'll go then since you love sitting behind.
i will flunk all my papers if i continue to sit around you, i cant concentrate because of your stupid nonsense.
just fuck off as far as possible, maybe it's even better if you're in the other class, or if you transfer school, i'll be super super super glad to hear that.

i've been tolerating you for very very long. forgive you alot of times.
but now, i guess i cannot go any further. you have exceeded my tolerance.
if there's no police/law in this world, & the two of us are left in this world.
i'll punch your face, kick your balls, castrate you, dig out your eyes, torture you cruelly, then chop you into many small pieces like minced meat, cook it with curry & feed to the dogs.
oh, no, dogs are so cute, your flesh is not suitable for them to eat, even their dog food is much better than your flesh.
maybe just throw into the sea & let it decompose & rot? that's just so nice of me to think of that, not cruel at all.
say i'm disgusting/evil/mean/crazy/cruel/sacarstic, i dont care.
yes i am that sacarstic/crazy, but remember you're the one who made me into such a crazy woman.
my parents gave birth to me is not for you to insult me/crush my self-esteem/bully me.
i had enough of your fucking nonsense.

tomorrow's the start of common test, i dont want my results to be affected because of you this _____.
i dont know if i had owe you in our previous life, why must you come & torture me in this life.
so shut up.
i had this lesson learnt, scars will always remain to let me think twice before trusting the wrong people.
i wont be so gullible to believe people anymore.
so people, if you see me in a super bad mood, i'm sorry for the attitude & stuffs.
getting really tired of all this.

bye.

2008 wont be a good year for me. :(

2008-02-17T14:50:00.003+08:00

sectional & combined yesterday.
went for lunch then to lot 1 to meet people.
back to JE & walked around.
friends went home.
sorry for waiting so long for me.

walked around.
browsed books, tried clothes/shoes.
i want to buy the book P.S I LOVE YOU.
& gonna catch that movie maybe after common test.
oh, joey, when are you free? our dateeee.
kungfu dunk.

met desmond after he caught his movie.
walked around then to library.
went to restaurant for grandfather's birthday.
people were waiting for me, i'm very very sorry.

ate & homed.
super tired.

tuition today, new tutor.
woke up at 10.05am when she reached at 10.15am.
shucks, i didnt even brush my teeth/wash face...
& had to open the door for her.
she's super early, tuition start at 10.30am.
very very sorry again, apologized alot of times.

she's a good tutor.
taught me a-maths on the trigonometrical functions & partial fractions.
& at least i understand them now.
i know i'm a slow learner but she's got the patience to teach me.
thank you alot.

tried on tops yesterday & i love that white dress.
39 bucks. i dont know whether i should buy anot, but it's super low cut.
but super nice can, & that purple mini dress, 7 bucks only.
i feel like going JE later again to buy. lol.

cried this morning.
i'm afraid i'll be having nightmares everynow & then this time round.
i really had enough of you, you're the one who made me had this dislike for the damn class & school.
i miss the lives in 3S8`07, not 4E8`08 anymore.
i dont like my life of 2008.
i really miss the lives in 3S8 last year.
but actually you've changed, not me.
i dont think 2008 would be a good year for me.
my baby mickey have been drinking my tears quite a number of times in a day.
i remembered the first time i cried in 2008 was because of you.
i cant tolerate your nonsense anymore, no way.
& now it's becoming worst everyday.
everyday when i wake up, i dont know what will happen in school.
i really dislike going to school, not because of studies, but because of you.
i'm sick of it already, either you'll be making fun of me, spreading rumours about me, saying bad words about me bla bla bla...
can you just tell me what you dislike about me in every way.
tell me straight into my face better than doing stupid things behind me.
i've enough of it, really. i'm very very very tired.
can you make 4E8 pleasant for me? please.
i'm already having a stupid phobia of school because of you.
i guess many will be avoiding me soon because of you.
i dont know if you tell them rumours about me or whatever.
but i hope you wont.
i'm very very very tired of this game.
enough of it please.
people may say i'm very sensitive, yes i am.
i'm a very very sensitive girl, so please stop all your nonsense.

bye.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. <3

2008-02-14T20:12:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY PEOPLE. <33
spread your love to your loved ones this day.
valentines day not only can be celebrated with partners(gf/bf) but friends. :D

got wonderful friends beside me.
exchanged presents, bought roses.
thanks aileen for that pink rose. :D
thanks to those who gave me chocolates though i dont eat them. :)
bought roses for mommy & daddy.
brought bbf's sunflower home.
he didnt bring home it la, left it in class.

tomorrow's darling evon's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND.
HAPPY VALENTINES TOO.
ILOVEYA. <3
think you'll be receiving a belated birthday present.
shall buy you a moo-moo cow. lol.
& wish you & your Y last long long la.

i'm in love with sunflower & roses.
the smell of the flowers are so nice.
i'm so into the valentines(friends) mood.
flowers are love. <3

pretty pretty flowers. all so chio. :D
i think i'm in love with flowers already. lol.
but the roses wither so fast, sigh.

can you stop playing your childish game?
i've enough of it, can you just stop with all your nonsense?
you're super irritating that makes people pissed off super easily.
not only irritating, you're too much in your language.
your mouth sucks, whatever come out of your mouth aint nice words.
have ever you think that whatever you say are hurting others alot?
you love to put your happiness on others sadness yerh?
can you just put yourself into other shoes?
i know you cant & you wont cos you think too highly of yourself.
but in fact, you're just a normal person who's not handsome at all.
you dont have the rights to critize others when you're not the perfect guy at all.
nobody's perfect so dont think you are.
why you just love treating me this way when you treat other people normally?
am i your frustrating bin or whatever? your jokes are way too much.
yes, i cant take your jokes or whatever. i'm bloody pissed off.
i think i'll go mad/bonkers/having depression if i'm gonna to tolerate your nonsense.
i really want to have a change of seat.
i cant tolerate you anymore, really no.
i think i trusted the wrong person, you're a total different person from last year.
totally different, i dont know why you change so much.
i didnt even expect to have conflicts with guys, but you're the first one.
if you think sitting with me is a torture, then change your seat then.
change to somewhere far far away from me.
either you go or i go.
that's it. i dont think you would want to be friends with me anymore since you're hating me that much, treating me this way.
to think i treat you so good in the past, telling you my secrets bla bla bla...
i was totally wrong.
if you wanna end this friendship & be normal accquaintance, i dont mind too, but i doubt you would even want to be accquaintance.
i know you hate me that much, hate me to the core, yes i know.
but if you hate me that much, tell me straight into my face, dont gossip right behind my back. i've got ears.
dont be a hypocrite, spread rumours about me to others.
sometimes, i feel like slapping your face/mouth.
you're not tired, i'm super tired. can just stop all your stupid nonsense?
i've enough of this kind of life, i dont want the remaining months til end of year & next year to be a torture.
i want to graduate happily. i want to score well this year.
tell me not to bother you, i really feel like not bothering you but i cant.
i'm super sensitive, i'm a normal girl, you dont have to treat me like this do you?
yes, i shall then try my best not to bother you.

2008-02-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

how i wish time would turn back to last tues.
rawr.

homework's been piling up since new year ended. :(
went to lz house during sunday.
i lazy to upload photos la.
but all in evon's blog, go there see.

gambled more during saturday & lose money.
20 plus bucks, but actually it's considered very little la.
hahaha, many lose over 100 plus bucks.
i'm still considered quite lucky, but not lucky in sense of winning.

& i've trimmed my nails.
oh, my lovely nails, i seriously do miss them.
how i wish they were like so long forever.
sigh.

been chasing over the new edition of wars of in laws-wo de ye man nai nai.
Wars of in laws 2. :D
not watching ISWAK 2 yet, missed two episodes of it.
many serials coming up, dont have time to watch. sigh again.

common test next week.
sigh sigh sigh.
i dont know how my grades would fare but i really hope i can score well.
maybe wont blog til after common test.

happy valentines day in advance. :)
ciao~

HAPPY CNY.

2008-02-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CNY. :D
where is my angbao huh? LOL.

didnt go visiting this year.
but went to temple on the first day then home.
not many relatives came like before, but still okay la.
& gambled yesterday, lost a few bucks only.
heng~.

i shall gamble tomorrow again. hahaha.
i want to win money for shopping. :D
hope lady luck is here with me yerh.
& i've not start on my coursework yet when it's due when CNY ends.
-.-

not to say a-maths please.
went to find mrs yip after the CNY concert celebration & did.
left 2 more questions but i forgot to bring my textbook home.
oh so wonderful, i dont have to do when i gotta pass up on monday.
chinese idiom test & a-maths test on tuesday.
great, i shall fail. but i did bring home the chinse idiom book.

still in the CNY mood, dont feel like doing coursework laaaa.
oh & my nails are purple in colour. :D
went to imm with xg after during new year eve.
bought that nail polish & saw a super duper uper chio,sexy,elegant 3.5 inches black patent mondo heels.
but dont have my size. RAWR!!!!
& it's super cheap can. $15.90 onlyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

both of us got the size 39 & tried on it.
though it's a super high heel, but super stable alright.
size 39 is so painful. just a few steps & my toes were turning red.
awwww... but but but i really want to buy.
xg was 'psycho-ing' me to buy that heels so we can share. our sizes are the same.
but you see, i go for comfort first though that heels super chio.
can mondo get a size 40 for their heels & flats?
they dont seem to import size 40 for all their shoes. -.-

went around finding suitable heels, but none had my sizes.
all 39, no size 40. RAWR those shoe shops.
can they get a size 40 for their heels & bring down the prices?
zzz.

went to maternal grandfather's house today.
they're not that superstitious so can.
& i wore a mini dress. a super mini one.
a malay guy was looking at my thighs, the end of the dress.
tiko peh. once i got off the bus, many were looking at me.
i admit it's frigging short la, but what to do.
i already wore it, dont expect me to take off in public. -.-

will post up pictures next time.
ciao~.

2008-02-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

i'm a super happy girl. :D :D :D :D
cos' i bought my stuffs alreay except my heels/mascara.

went jp with evon gf just now.
& we each bought 5 items.
purple comb.
gohjing's present.
eyelash curler.
hair clips.
gold clutch.
:D

& finally, i got my GOLD clutch.
YAY. :D
i'm gonna get a red/white clutch soon.
it's so damn frigging cheap, i'll get other colours at bugis.
about the same price.
:D

next coming up would be mascara & heels.
just cant seem to find the right heels for me lor.
mascara=no money buy. i find it expensive la.
a stick for $16.90-$19.90?!
crazy, i'd rather buy a pair of heels/tops/printed tees can.

will be going jp again tomorrow.
i've not got my nail polish yet, but will be getting soon.
& i saw the express medicure for $12.
express pedicure for $15.
think i can do it yerh? but i dont know how's the result.
i think i'd rather buy nail polish & DIY.

trimming eyebrow is the another thing for new year.
should be asking auntie to do.
i want to watch revolving doors of vegenance.
ciao~

& happy new year in advance.
happy valentines day in advance too.
heh. xD

2008-02-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

finally no homework for this week.
finally... i'm super happy can.
but upcoming tests almost everyday laaa.
e-maths test every friday. the teacher's insane.

but i've gotta complete my F&N & hand up after CNY.
two & a half days of school this coming week.
woo~ super happy. :D
CNY is just a public holiday & i want my clutchhhhh.

nah, didnt baked biscuits today.
should be baking tomorrow.
going to buy the ingredients first before baking & red man is the place.
didnt know that red man sold so many things until evon brought us there the other time.

i've gotta craving for poodles/dogs.
real dogs, mind you but i'm afraid of them. like so irony/weird.
maybe small little ones. chihuahua/poodle/terrier.
maybe golden retriever but its super huge lor but super handsome can.
i dislike those super noisy dogs who bark for no reason.
those quiet ones/guai ones. of course, please dont give me a dog who bites for nothing.

dont waste food.

mickey;minnie;babymickey

<3

2008-01-30T19:37:00.000+08:00

i'm having 3 tests tomorrow. wth laaaa. >.<
each day maximum 2 test only, but heck care la.
they want test then test, if we fail, not our business, blame our brain for not being able to absorb & digest those stuffs.

SS test on diplomacy & ASEAN, last year stuffs.
E-maths test on sine,cosine rule, bearing. no 3D stuffs right?
Chinese 'big' test. lol.
super dumbbbbbbbbb.
i hate having tests, who does?

CNY is coming, Valentines is coming. (:
i'm super free during both CNY & valentines.
lol. i cant visit my relatives, first year, so still in mourning period?
single, & nobody dating me.
but i'd rather celebrate with my girlfriendssss than some stupid jerks.

have to off soon, revising SS & doing finish my e-maths ws.
i so hate mrs yip, have to see her tomorrow for like 4 periods again?!
you're kidding man, i'd rather talk to some super 'guai lan' bitches for 2 hours rather than seeing her for 2 hours.

oh, i'm gonna bake biscuits for CNY.
the biscuits we baked today tastes so nice luh.
i want more, so i shall baked during CNY & give to my lovely family & friendsss.
<3

ciao~

unhappy girl. :(

2008-01-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

sectional today.
went to meet people.
marina to celebrate's dear gohjing's birthday.
ate until super bloated, didnt waste my 20 bucks.

went down to bugis.
bought my blue spag. :D
i cant find my wedges/heels.
so in the end, i just bought that blue spag & a blue bangle.
that's why i'm not happy. zzz.
dont feel like buying that red smoked tube anymore.

but i shall spent those money on clutches.
i'll get either a gold/silver/red one.
maybe red, cos' its NEW YEAR. :D
red/blue/gold/silver/black is the colour now.
especially dark shades of blue, the colour of my spag. (:

walked around then people came find us, but went home after that.
too tired. legs were hurting.
wanted to walk around JE to get my heels/wedges, but legs were quite aching.
people had to go home. went home then.

tons of homework undone.
tomorrow is the day for me complete it. rawr.
i think 20 plus e-maths questions & a-maths. kaozx.
mrs yip is sucha bitch.
i dont know how can she become the HOD?
i think my friends are much capable of teaching better than her, at least we understand when they teach us.

pictures next timeee.
byeee.

zzz.

2008-01-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

since evon wanted me to blog cos' she said she wanna read.
so i shall start the story of my crappy life once again.

for the past few days, it was just boring lessons.
things that made me super pissed off.
was super sad/moody.
but i'm alright now. :D

went window-shopping today, again.
bugis. saw many many nice clothes & shoes.
i dont care, i'll be going to bugis again before new year.
& i've already calculated.
i'll be spending $44 bucks on two tops & two pairs of shoes.
i'll either buy that white heels if there's my size, if not, i'll get that pair of wedges, hopefully there's still my size when i go there again.

i want that red smoked tube & the blue spag top.
tried on many skinnies today & realised skinnies are a BIG NONONO for me.
it made me looked so damn fat & my legs so short. :(
or maybe a long denim skinny.
no more black/purple/red/white whatever skinnies.

combined tmrw again. zzz.
4 maths periods again tmrw.
wth? a-maths, die.
she shall teach her own stuffs.
i do my own stuffs. & i want to sit alone for the time being.
i shall change places with ahmad.
ciao~.

updateeee.

2008-01-16T19:56:00.000+08:00

i know this blog is like half-dead.
just to do something about this blog if not it'll be totally dead.
zzz.

handling 2 blogs.
4e8-2008.bs.com is our class blog.
finally, the class blog.
go visit & tag. thanks.

homework stacking up. :(
gotta do chinese later.
i dont like doing homework, who does?

this is super duper uper niceeeeeee.

lovessss. <3

this is dumb & stupid. lol.

& ending off with a <3.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN XIN TIAN.
<3333.
hope you like the 'book'. no words.
full of chocolates, strawberries, blueberries. :D

weekend again. (:

2008-01-13T20:26:00.000+08:00

YAY, weekend again. :D
most of homework completed except those i dont know.
& there's 2 tests tomorrow.

e-maths & chinese.
zzz. :(
studied for e-maths but not for chinese.

just hung up the phone with Evon.
what she said was super scary can.
i'm alone at home now lah. dont make me scare out of wits can anot.
& the talking to the cockroach thing is super funny.
hahahaha.

was feeling super random just now.
doing my F&N task analysis half-way then i asked desmond whether should i cut my hair anot?
lol. super super random.
but i want a change of hairstyle.
let it grow longer then i'll either do curls or reborn.
or should i cut it short? or should i have bangs?
i dont knowww...
but i want curls, they looked so sexy but very mature, not suitable for my age can.
zzz.
hair gonna be super super dry if i'm gonna reborn. =.=

plaits is the current thing now.
but if i'm gonna tie thin plaits to school, i guess i'll be the laughing stock for the day.
zzz, nevermind then.

last week pictures.
in the midst of completing the stupid 7 compos.

& yeah, bbq-ed yesterday.
took alot of picturessss...
will post them next time.
sorry for the delay.

ciao~

blah.

2008-01-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

just an update since people said this blog is so dead.
yeah, i really dont have time to blog alright.
i've not watched my TKA yet.
as you can see, it's not like sec 3, still so relaxing.
but it's super stress now, homework, homework & more homework.

everyday reaching home so damn late & still we have to complete those homework on time.
super stress.
& i hate my maths teacher. so what if she is the HOD? big deal ah?
i dont even know what the hell is she saying can.
i think the whole class dont even know what rubbish is she yakking about.
she can even take away 15 mins of our recess time & still say she know it's our recess but too bad, we're too slow.
!@#$%^&*

& tomorrow's maths period would be the last period, fine, i dont have to think of getting home early.
she's gonna dragggggggg...
continue living in her own world, talking to the whiteboard, doing her own stuffs & we just copying all the answers down when we dont even know how she get to that step. -.-

went for the stupid learning journey to asian civilisation museum during tuesday afternoon.
super boring & my bag was fugging heavy can.
but thanks to our monitor who helped me carried my bag throughout the whole journey.
super heavy & he still can carry throughout the whole journey.
thanks. (:

PE today was a torture.
4 stations.
jumping on hoola hoops, pumping, skipping & sit ups.
circuit training.
we did at least 3 times for the whole training.
zzz. my muscles are aching.

4 free periods. english & cme.
miss junaidah didnt come.
gossiped, chatted, some did homework...
rained heavily & took class photo after that.
yahui & me had to tip toe cos' our dearest monitor is so damn tall & mind you, he's sitting down on a chair okay.

think that's long enough.
doing a-maths revision later.
partial fractions. i sucked at fractions.
nights.